I hit a goal today! Yey!! I am officially in the 200s.
But in my mind, it was an "easy" goal since I didn't really have that far to go to get to the 200s when I started SP two weeks ago - and so enters the voice in my head that immediately wants to give me grief about it and nay say. I hate that Voice.
Here's the conversation I've been having with myself ALL morning:
ME: Monday morning. Time to hit the scale for a weigh-in.
VOICE: Ugh, you feel heavy and bloated this morning. You shouldn't have gone out last night. It's not going to be down - it's going to be up. You know it's going to be up.
ME: It doesn't matter what the scale says. It's just a TOOL to measure one aspect of this journey and there are plenty of other things that have happened this week that make me feel successful. And would you look at that! I'm down, AND I'm under 300!!!
VOICE: Well that wasn't exactly hard. You only started this program two weeks ago, so losing 10 pounds is just losing water weight. It's going to get SO much harder from here on out. In fact, I bet next week you GAIN weight. Don't hang on to that "under 300" goal too tightly.
ME: NO! I'm DONE with the 300s. REALLY. I am. I worked for that loss this week, and I'm going to take it. A goal is a goal - no matter how easily it may have come. Maybe I have finally found something that works for me - have you ever thought about it that way?
VOICE: Maybe. But I doubt it. You can't stick to anything. I bet this lasts another couple of weeks and then you'll give up and be back in the 300s.
ME: Voice, I'm gonna cut you. Yes, maybe the goal was easy this time around. Yes, maybe I feel a little guilty because I still enjoyed a few beers with my friends this weekend, and I ate out more than I had planned - but I tracked my food every single day, even those high calorie meals out. I walked everywhere I could. I stretched every morning. I was in the pool Wednesday night. I worked dammit! I worked.
VOICE: Well you better keep working cause next week you're going to be disappointed.
ME: Well - I have a new goal to work towards now, so I won't be disappointed because even if I have a low numbers week next Monday, my clothes might still be loose.
VOICE: I can't believe you're calling 10 pounds easy! Do you know how long it takes some people to lose 10 pounds? All those people are going to be mad at you and hate you for calling ten pounds an easy goal.
ME: This is what I'm saying. I'm taking that goal and I'm running with it. I need to be happy and OWN what I have accomplished. It was NOT easy. I'm just scared about what happens from here on out. I will be much happier to see the 280s.
VOICE: It's still water weight.
ME: GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!! I'm moving on and thinking positive thoughts now. Enough of you. I'm DONE with you Voice. I'm DONE WITH YOU for today. Now - I'm going to prep myself a healthy lunch, and look forward to my walk home after work. It's a beautiful sunny day. And I'm UNDER 300. For good. Things are bright and happy in Two Town baby. I'll be here for a while, but I'm still just "passing through."