FOOD AS A DRUG! DAY 120
Sunday, April 25, 2010
YOU CAN'T LOSE WEIGHT AND KEEP IT OFF WITHOUT CHANGING YOURSELF!
For those of you who would like to read Geneen Roth, she has an article in May's Redbook with Jennifer Lopez on the front. It's titled "5 ways to end your war with food." Her philosophy is simple, eat when you are hungry. "If you eat when you're not hungry, you're using food as a drug. And the question is: Why?" she says. Uhmmm. Yes, why, do we eat when we are not hungry? Why oh why. If I knew the answer to that I could be a millionaire. She makes you stop and think though and I've been concentrating on how my stomach feels. If it hurts, its acid reflux and if it is growling it is hunger. Started taking prilosec for the acid reflux so maybe that will help because I tend to eat when it is hurting.
God spoke to me in church today. It is Good Shepherd Sunday and the opening confession was, "God of life, you provide all that we need, but we often want more. (Food) You lead us to green pastures(vegetables) and refreshing waters, (8 glasses) but then we choose other paths." ........and then we blame you for deserting us."
Geneen says we have a relationship with food and we need to find out what the truth about it is. I'm supposed to be working on a vision statement so I am looking at 160 lbs as a goal and what is it about 160 pounds that makes me want to be there but keeps me from getting there? At 160 lbs I believe I can maintain that weight. I will be healthy without a fat roll around my stomach. I will probably be in a size 12 but I'll be able to wear many of my now clothes, they just won't be tight. And I can take in a seam. 160. It just sounds like a good number.
So why am I at 180 and what is stopping me from getting to that illusive 160.
1. I look and feel really good at the weight I am at. My clothes fit. I'm wearing a 14 in some cases.
2. I like to cheat. When I was younger, I could cheat and still lose. But no more. Who am I fooling? Not helping myself for sure.
3. If Geneen says I can eat when I'm hungry then I can eat what I want. But this isn't necessarily true is it. Many times I eat when I'm not hungry just because it is there, or I am bored, or hubby got one so I can too. Or my stomach hurts. My sister had acid reflux and she used to eat plates of pasta to sooth it. Now that she has lost 60 lbs, she no longer has it. So if I'm going to eat when I'm hungry, I need to be hungry and to stop eating when I'm full.
I've been here at Spark for 4 months and I'm ready to make some progress. Without Spark I would have given up by now. I was so frustrated yesterday morning but I focused on completing my nutrition tracker and I finished yesterday with about 1500 calories. That's okay. I've been doing some inquiry as Geneen suggests and learning about my feelings , etc. I set some achievable goals yesterday for this coming week. So maybe, something will happen! Thanks for all of my spark helpers out there. Tomorrow.