Nothing lost, nothing gained: A long, slow journey
Friday, April 23, 2010
When I joined Spark on March 3, I had great hopes of losing my first 10-15 pounds pretty quickly and then settling down into a more routine, gradual weight loss. I guess I figured that I had so much to lose that the first part would be pretty easy. Maybe I've been watching too many episodes of the biggest loser!
I did lose 6 pounds by March 15, but then I went on vacation and gained 2 of them back. I couldn't bear to enter the added weight into Spark in hopes that I'd get it back off the next week. That was early April. A back injury forced me to stop exercising and my workload at the office got so heavy that I was working late each night. As usual, I found myself turning to my same old vice-- overeating, especially those simple carbs. By mid-April I was afraid to step on the scale because I knew I'd gained even more of my weight back.
I got back on track this week, and stayed within my calorie limits and did at least one hour of strenuous exercise each day. I finally got the nerve to step on the scale this morning after finishing Day 50 on Spark yesterday. I'm right back where I was on March 15th.
Of course, I can't help thinking about how disappointing it is to have lost no weight in 6 weeks. On the other hand, I have had an incredible amount of support from my Spark friends, and without them, I probably would weigh more today than I did 6 weeks ago.
Right now, I am re-energized and ready to lose 2 pounds in the next week, so that I can at least feel that I made some progress towards my goal in April. We'll see.
In the meantime, thanks to all my Spark friends who are helping me work through this.