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Week 1 -- This is so difficult.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

So,I started on April 15th of 2010.
I realized something very intresting....OMFG this is DIFFICULT! I never realized that I would eat so many calories during the day. I was really surprised,and I guess that explains my weight gain over the years.
I actually used to be about 115 to 120 when I used to work at a grocery store pushing carts. Those were better days. Ate as much as I wanted,and didn't worry too much about it.

Now,with my weight well over what it should be,and struggling doing the things I used to do so's really quiet upsetting. I used to be able to run from the parking lot to the office,up the stairs,down the stairs without much of a problem. A little breathless,but not like it is now. I gained 15 lbs in one year. I used to be so much happier and had a lot more energy.
Those days are missed very much so.

I'm really wondering what I should do...I'm hoping it'll get easier in time,I guess I just want to lose the weight so badly,and so quickly. Day by day,I get so tired of sitting in the car,or just sitting in general,and having to look down at my pudge. It makes me sad....

*sigh* I need to stop being so down....I need to try harder,and just watch things a little closer.


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P0KERS0PH 4/22/2010 4:11PM

    It does get easier, I promise! Your body will get used to the smaller portions and it will become habit for you to pick healthier foods.
Get out once a day and take a walk, just for 10 minutes, that will lift your mood and start you off with exercising and forming it as a habit also.
Remember you can still eat the things you like sometimes, this isn't a diet, it's a lifestyle change.
Look ahead at that goal, picture yourself where you want to be in 6 months can do this!

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SIOBYONE 4/22/2010 1:14AM

    Welcome & don't be too hard on yourself. I try to focus on today & changing a little at a time. If I start thinking about how much I have to lose & how long it will take its too overwhelming & discouraging. I know how you feel about longing for those days when you didn't have to worry about weight & being out of shape. I used to be able to climb mountains & barely get winded. Now I breathe heavily just trying to make it up a couple flights of STAIRS. Depressing. So I don't think about what I can't do, but what I can do & enjoy now. I can go on walks with my daughter & run around our yard with her. I can go swimming. I can have fun dancing around the house. I'm just trusting that if I take care of myself & do what I need to do each day, one day at a time, I will be climbing mountains again in the not too distant future.


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DASANI4ME 4/22/2010 12:46AM

    emoticon and good luck on you quest!

You really can do it! emoticon

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RUDBEKIA 4/22/2010 12:22AM

    Don't be too hard on yourself, and give yourself a good tap on the shoulder for having gone through this first week and having learned so much about yourself!
Of course losing weight is difficult, but it will get easier as time goes by. See this as a new way of living, give yourself some time to adjust and feel the difference. If you get discouraged, remember how bad you felt at your heaviest, and use this as a motivator to keep going and NEVER feel this way again!
So keep tracking your food, you sure can learn a lot doing it, but also track your progress. Not just in terms of weight loss, but also in terms how you feel and look. You are going to see progress in no time, and then you won't want to stop, ever!
Good luck, you can do anything you set your heart and mind to!
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KEETAK 4/22/2010 12:19AM

    WELCOME to Spark!

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GAIL1000 4/22/2010 12:16AM

    emoticon to Sparkpeople....with the support you will find here... emoticon and you WILL do it!

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