Week 1 -- This is so difficult.
Thursday, April 22, 2010
So,I started on April 15th of 2010.
I realized something very intresting....OMFG this is DIFFICULT! I never realized that I would eat so many calories during the day. I was really surprised,and I guess that explains my weight gain over the years.
I actually used to be about 115 to 120 when I used to work at a grocery store pushing carts. Those were better days. Ate as much as I wanted,and didn't worry too much about it.
Now,with my weight well over what it should be,and struggling doing the things I used to do so easily....it's really quiet upsetting. I used to be able to run from the parking lot to the office,up the stairs,down the stairs without much of a problem. A little breathless,but not like it is now. I gained 15 lbs in one year. I used to be so much happier and had a lot more energy.
Those days are missed very much so.
I'm really wondering what I should do...I'm hoping it'll get easier in time,I guess I just want to lose the weight so badly,and so quickly. Day by day,I get so tired of sitting in the car,or just sitting in general,and having to look down at my pudge. It makes me sad....
*sigh* I need to stop being so down....I need to try harder,and just watch things a little closer.