Tuesday, April 20, 2010
So I went shopping last week with my friend to look for a dress for my birthday
this Saturday. I was feeling pretty good at the beginning of it but once either stores didn't have my size or things just didn't look anywhere near good on me, I was losing steam! I ended up finding a dress I'm not crazy about it but everyone thinks it looks better than the others I've tried on so I went ahead and bought it. I'm so upset with myself because I promised myself I would AT LEAST be down one size by my birthday. I have done nothing but come up with excuses not to work out and be as lazy as can be, which has gotten me no where. I want to lose the weight but the MAIN thing for me is motivation. I'll have it for about three days and lose all motivation I had and it frustrates me because I have no idea why... I look in my closet and see clothes and think I can't wait till I can say these are TOO BIG! I just feel like that's just slipping away more and more. I don't know what else I can try to do. I really don't know anyone near me that needs to lose weight that can be my weight loss buddy. All my friends are toothpicks and don't really understand how I feel. About two weeks ago one friend said why don't you just not eat so much? that way you can be thin! They think I'm fat because I eat 5-6 times a day when they eat like once or twice a day. No one really understands... I don't want to use that as an excuse one why I can't lose weight but I feel like I have zero support so I start thinking what's the point? So I'm making a goal for myself, to lose 20 pounds by the first week of July. I have low expectations about it but we will see if it happens or not. I sure hope so though!