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Coming Clean With Myself & My Sparkfriends...

Sunday, April 18, 2010

I wasn't even going to blog about this. I mean, what kind of person blogs about what a horrible job they've done with their eating & exercise? LOOZINITNOW reminded me that an honest one does. So that's what I'm doing-THANK YOU for the reminder Lisa! And the unknowing emoticon in the butt.

So I have stayed away from the computer the most part since Friday night. I managed to eat a bunch of carp after buying a bunch of carp I need no business buying. I was my own worst enemy. I tried not to think about Spark at all as I purchased tortilla chips, cheese and ice cream. I definitely wasn't thinking about Spark when I was consuming those fattening products. I obviously wasn't thinking about how this same carp causes me to feel like carp afterwards.

I need to get my $%^@ together and stop being my own worst enemy. I have devoted no time to exercise this weekend. I am going to make it my goal this week to do better. I know that I am better than this and that I can do better. It's time to stop lying to myself and start opening my eyes and being real with myself. I want to move forward more often than not. I will therefore commit to 3 fast break goals for this week....

1.Drink 9 glasses of water a day.
2.Walk 10,000 steps a day.
3.Walk/run 21 miles a week (this breaks up to 3 miles daily).

Ok, I've just updated this on my other goals page. I've written it here so I will be accountable to myself as well as everyone here. The other thing I've done is upped my calories burned from 2500 to 3000 on my Fitbit tracker.

I'm still Getting Sexified & Staying Serious. I just wanted to be upfront about my eating and lack of exercise the last few days. So I've already moved back one step. Time to move 2 steps forward. I know I can get out of this slump and start fresh right now. I refuse to give up on myself. I deserve to be healthy, fit and wear smaller sized clothes! I am worth it!

Time for a fresh new start...
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    You can do it and you are worth it. Way to get real. That is a big step. I try to do this every chance I get because it does keep you in check when you blog about it. I had a horrible day over the weekend food wise but I have turned it around because next weekend I want to be able to write a blog about a successful week. No one is perfect. You will be will be great:)
    2895 days ago
    I think we blog about whatever we want, good or bad-at least those honest blogs are what help each other and in turn ourselves. There's no shame in having a bad weekend or in blogging about a bad weekend. So you didn't get on the computer or do what you had planned? It's not a huge deal. We all need a break sometimes and you took yours :) We all have bad days, bad weekends, bad weeks! You're motivated and determined. Take a deep breath and get back to where you want to be at your own pace and start refreshed after your break!

    Your blogs motivate and inspire me and make me think. Luv ya!

    2895 days ago
    Simone, we all have moments when we relapse and return to our unhealthier days! Good for you for realizing that you have the power to control your destiny!
    2895 days ago
    you can do it!
    2895 days ago
    I'm pulling for you!
    2895 days ago

    Comment edited on: 4/19/2010 3:54:03 PM
  • LESLIES537
    Your honesty is very respectable! I know you can get out of this slump too! You're gonna do this, no if's ands or but's about it! emoticon emoticon
    2896 days ago
    You can do it, Simone!
    2896 days ago
    I'm glad that you were strong enough to come clean & be honest not with just everyone here, but most of all with yourself, after all this is a process being done for yourself! I've had a few off times myself, so I completely understand where you are coming from, however, it's what keeps getting me in trouble!!! LOL. You can get back on track, because I know you are one determined person, so I'm VERY glad you're not going to let a couple of bad days derail you further!! You can do it my friend!!! :)
    2896 days ago
    I have to agree with Yvonne here. I am glad that you were honest about where you have been this weekend but I am sad that you went there. You told us that you needed "me time" away from the computer, so I did the newsletter for you, thinking that you were making healthy choices and taking care of YOU!... If I had known what was going to happen I would have been honest about how badly I was feeling and had you do it... perhaps then you'd have stayed focused and SERIOUS! Thanks for being honest.. not with us, but with yourself. You are so worth the journey... GET SERIOUS and STAY SERIOUS! Love ya, Dawn emoticon emoticon
    2896 days ago
    Thanks for your comment on my blog and for telling me you had blogged about eating out of control as well; that brought me to your blog and I can totally understand how you feel. Another of the women who commented on my blog ssuggested that instead of thinking about starting over, think instead of "continuing." Otherwise it sounds as though all our past efforts never happened. She also suggested thinking through the WHY. I think she had a great point. It was hard to post my blog about my junk food consumption. However, I never worked through why I did it, and why I have done it many times in the recent past. Perhaps this is something to which we both need to give some thought. It is hard to admit to these mistakes we are making, but maybe the hardest but most important part would be to spend some time thinking about WHY we keep doing this.

    All that being said, I think your fast break goals are good ones. I am setting some new ones for myself this week. One of them will be specifically to keep all junk food out of my house. I can't become sexified while eating snack cakes and licorice (my other trigger food)!

    May your week be successful and blessed.
    2896 days ago
    Oh boy I have toyed and toyed with whether or not to respond to this blog and in what manner. I wrote a blog last week about not being afraid to call a Spark Buddy out. Well, Simone you are a very dear friend and I want you to succeed, So here goes...

    I quote, "This weekend I plan to spend less time on the emoticon and more time making healthier choices, exercising, and of course, going to church . OK so you took time away from the computer but where did the healthier choices and exercise come in. The most important thing we do here on Spark people is be on the computer with the Spark community, or at least that is what has been the difference to me. I thought you were just taking time off visiting other buddies Spark Pages and Blogs. I should never have assumed that meant you were at least going to be doing your Food and Fitness Trackers and the reading that is required for the day to get your 100 points or so for the day. Evidently you did not even get on the computer to take care of Simone's needs.

    One of the most important lessons I have learned here on Spark People is the more you Spark the better you do. You have just proved that because you obviously dropped the ball this weekend by not Sparking.

    Kudos to you for coming clean and to tell us what happened. Kudos to you for realizing it was wrong and that you have to stop and get back on track.

    Now just one other little thing. You said and I quote, " I'm still Getting Sexified & Staying Serious." Please clarify, not to Me but to You. Where does the still come in if you did not go this during the past weekend?

    emoticon but you need to convince yourself of this and explain to yourself or map out your game plan and stick to it to be able to say I'm still Getting Sexified & Staying Serious. Still means that you have been doing it.
    emoticon emoticon you need a emoticon in the butt emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2896 days ago

    Comment edited on: 4/18/2010 9:55:49 PM
  • AIMEEM77
    You are most definitely worth it and you can do it!
    2896 days ago
    What is it about this week. I've had a really hard week and I've stayed away some from SP b/c of it. Not what I need to do. Thanks for blogging about it and for helping me realize that I am not alone and that I can do this! We can do this!!!
    2896 days ago
    I have written this same blog so many times!! In fact, I just did the same thing,and made some goals, and posted them on the fridge to make me accountable. It has helped so far!!! We CAN do this!!! emoticon
    2896 days ago
    Simone....I am so proud of you for coming clean on here. Doesn't it feel good to let go of the bad and start fresh again? I think I spent too little time on Spark the last week or two and the results were not good. I let my guard down. But, with our guards lifted back high, we will proceed better than ever this week! It is all a learning experience and we should have learned a thing or two from our mistakes this week. Look out new week, here we come!!!
    2896 days ago
    LOOZINITNOW was so right in telling you to blog about it and be honest, not just with us but with yourself most of all! First off, you are NOT the only one who has had to write a blog like this (or more than once if you are like me!). Things like this happen and life happens. We learn that through Spark we do not take it hard but learn from it and move on to being better and doing smarter things for ourselves from here on. Believe me, I have those set backs often but continue to pick myself up and work harder that next day. In the end, it all balances out if you come back and work hard! I truly and honestly can say 30+ pounds lighter, it is possible!

    Just start fresh tomorrow and visit us here often! The more you come to SP the better you will be!
    2896 days ago
  • DRURY23
    Everyone has those "bad times"... we're human. When you're changing your lifestyle and were so used to eating that stuff before, it's hard to give up those habits. The good thing is, you felt guilty. Sounds funny but you held yourself accountable, and were brave enough to blog about it. There's nothing wrong with the fact that you "slipped". You had the motivation to blog about it, set new goals, and move forward. THAT'S what counts!! Hang in there!! You're not a bad person, you just slipped for one day. We ALL do it.

    2896 days ago
    So glad you blogged about this! These are the hardest ones to write, but the most needed!!! You can do it!!!
    2896 days ago
    I am having a difficult weekend too. Cheese and crackers, I couldn't resist. Setbacks are expected, get back in the game! emoticon
    2896 days ago
    Well, while we're confessing, I did no exercise this weekend and ate chocolate cookies all day today. See it isn't just you. BUT now we get back to business and move ahead with our program. A step backward is not a disaster, merely a foolish side attraction. We will make it if we stay positive and you are doing great my friend,

    2896 days ago
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