Sunday, April 18, 2010
Hello my dear Spark Friends! It’s been a while since I have posted a blog and I know many of you are concerned about my well-being. We are still sharing my laptop and once my daughter is through with this semester (May 15th) so I should have more access to the laptop then. So how am I am doing? I am doing GREAT… better than GREAT if that is possible! There is so much to tell you that I decided it would make too long of a video.
Where do I begin? Let me start with how watching the two children is going… the baby (Jackson) is just so adorable, still cutting teeth and he was sick for a couple of days with a stomach virus. He is almost walking now and he is just such a good baby and so happy. You can’t help but be happy when you are with him. His parents are pleased that he is sleeping through the night as I wear him out during the day as he spends time in his walker, the jumping Johnny (I think that is what they call it) and he and I play together physically and it is good exercise for me… lifting 25 pounds several times up and over my head. Cicely has started T-ball and she is such a delight. She and I transplanted the seeds we planted a few weeks ago and that really excited her to see all the seeds we planted have grown so much. She has helped me cut back the ivy that was about to take over our front porch and then we had to clean up under it to get all the leaves out that no one had ever cleaned out. In the process of raking out the landscaped beds in our yard we have found many plants we didn’t even know where here. We have all kinds of hostas growing and on the side of the house we found we have Irises. They were imbedded with leaves and it took us 2 hours just to clean out all the leaves. So we’ve raked leaves and we have put out all new mulch (10 bags of it, each bag weighing 50 pounds) using 5 gallon buckets. We’ve pulled weeds and are still pulling weeds… LOL!!! Last week my dad came in and built me 4 more raised planting beds and 6 planting boxes and then Cicely and I stained them. Now this coming week we have to put the mesh wire and chicken wire on the bottom of them and then my dad is coming back down so we can put the legs on and stain them. Once we get all of those ready then we will have to mix more soil (potting soil, peat moss, vermiculite, chicken manure and cotton burr compost) so we can plant the berry bushes and transplant more of the veggies we have ready to plant. So Cicely and I stay busy and we still find time to take breaks and play Mario, yes, I now play Mario on the Wii… never in my dreams did I think I would play video games… but I do and I must say it is addictive!
I have been taking the 500 mg of Niacin to help with my high Triglycerides and so far no problems with taking it. I went to the eye doctor last week and had my eye exam and diabetes check up on my eyes. You see 2 years ago I woke up one day and I literally couldn’t ready my emails (even on large text). I could see everything else just fine, but I couldn’t read anything!! It scared me as I thought I was going blind due to my diabetes. I knew a gentleman who was legally blind as a result of his not taking care of his diabetes and so I knew how serious this was. When I went to the eye doctor at that time I weighed around 590 or so and I had a difficult time taking the exam and at one point even had to take a break as I thought I was going to pass out. I couldn’t sit in the chair comfortably, I kept fogging up the exam equipment, it just was not a good exam because of my physical limitations. This time I could sit in the chair and put my feet on the foot rest and I was comfortable the entire time. I didn’t have to take a break and at one point the eye doctor told me that a test he had just performed on me using a piece of exam equipment I was not able to do at the exam I had 2 years ago. He had used a manual instrument the previous exam so that he could exam my eyes since I couldn’t use the exam equipment. So to say the least I was quite impressed with myself and my progress and how it is truly changing my life!!
I am almost back to the weight I was at in late February before my trip to my son’s choral competition as I put on about 16 pounds of water from that trip and then within two weeks of that I started watching the kids and was sitting (which cuts off blood circulation and causes more swelling and water retention). So before I knew it I was up to 535 again. Now I am back down to 517 and have found a routine with the kids that allows me time to put my legs up a couple of times throughout the day and that has helped a lot!! My son, Josh, has finally got under 290 and he is very happy about that. My DH and DD aren’t really in following our healthy lifestyle plan but my son and I are committed to it! One day when Cicely and I were cutting up carrots for carrot sticks (which she loves) we decided to make up a fruit and veggie plate for Josh when he got home from school. Well that started something… so every day now we try to have a fruit/veggie platter out for Josh when he gets home from school so we can all munch and visit about the day. Even my DD has come in to join in with us and it has been really nice and very good for all of us.
Update on DH and his job hunting status… NOT! That’s right, he has sent out only 4 resumes in the past 60+ days since his job was eliminated. I have very calming let him know my expectations and what would happen if they were not met so he knows what is on the line. I am advertising to take on more children and already have a friend of Cicely’s that is 5 that will start coming in mid-May throughout the summer and then do after school care when she starts Kindergarden in the fall. I am looking to take on 2 more children for the summer and possibly into the Fall depending on DH’s job situation. My son is going to help me watch the children in the summer so he can make some money for his trip to Europe with his Choir next spring 2011. So I am going to be busy, busy, busy between the children and the garden.
Sometime during the month of May I have got to make up the flowers for my neice’s wedding at the the end of May as well as make the mints and bird seed bags. I know that Cicely will love to help me with these projects so that will be a big help!
A couple of weeks ago we bought some used outdoor furniture (a metal/wooden bench, metal table, wicker set that has a loveseat, 2 end tables, center table and 2 chairs) and they definitely needed some work done to them. So last week I worked on cleaning them up, some repairs and then I stained them and they look so nice on our deck. I have still got to work on the metal and wood bench as it needs to be repainted and the wood needs to be stained. So another project for next week! I am trying to get all the yardwork and deck/front porch projects done in time for my daughter’s graduation party for our family on May 15th . So lots to do and not enough time to do it all as fast as I want to. I also bought some used canning jars and some canning equipment so I am ready for when the veggies are ready to be harvested. I am going to freeze some as well. I’ve got a lot of reading to do so I am prepared when the time comes. I helped my mom can when I was a girl but I don’t remember much… I mainly snapped green beans as we would pick trash bags full of them everyday and have to have them snapped by the time my mom got home from work.
Last but not least, I have had a revelation about my life as a result of all the things I have been doing this past 6 weeks. I stopped “living” my life back in 2006 as a result of my DH’s unemployment at that time. That is when I began living my life from my bed and using my laptop as my main connection to the world. My business is internet based so that required that I be on the laptop, but I took that to an extreme and “my excuse” was that it was for the business. I did work 10 to 12 hours a day on the business and would do some internet shopping (as I didn’t go anywhere). My life was confined to 4 walls and a bathroom with an occasional trip to the kitchen to cook a meal. The longer that this went on the less mobile I became and the more weight I gained. SparkPeople has changed my life!!! In the past 15 months I have lost more weight on my own that I have ever lost and I am doing things I haven’t done in 10 to 12 years. By not having access to the laptop this past couple of months it has forced me to do other things around the house as I can’t stand to not be doing something. Watching the children has also been a physical challenge that I wasn’t sure I could do, but I am doing it and I am good at it! I like to stay busy… so I have been doing things that I didn’t think I could do any more… one Friday when I had the house all to myself I challenged myself to clean the kitchen, dining room and laundry room. I mopped floors (I can’t remember the last time I did that myself) I cleaned out the laundry room and worked on organizing some of the cabinets. I cleaned out the refrigerator and washed and put away 6 loads of laundry. I scrubbed down cabinet tops and anything that I thought needed it. I did it… I spent all day cleaning and even though I did have to sit down part of the time but I still accomplished it. The next day the tops of my thighs felt like I had done 100 squats… I hurt all over, but it was a good kind of hurting feeling as I knew what I had just accomplished! So my point is that by not spending all my time on the computer I have began truly “LIVING LIFE”!!! I had forgotten what “LIVING” really felt like. I had forgotten how the pain from doing things physically had it’s rewards of knowing that you had done something yourself, using your own hands. I had forgotten how good it feels to sweat because you are working hard to do something. I had forgotten how good it feels to look at something you have done when you are finished and know that you did that! YOU DID IT! Not someone else!
Every day I feel God’s presence working through me to repair this broken down vessel (my body) and to help me rebuild it into an even better one! I can’t express to you how much my life has changed and how good I feel, both mentally and physically!! I am stronger than I have ever been and I feel as if I can accomplish so much now. I am proud of myself and even though I feel guilty for not posting more often, I feel very good about the reason(s) why… I am challenging myself physically every day…. I am going to bed so tired that I fall asleep and sleep well throughout the entire night… I am happy, laughing, full of energy and I am more mobile than I have been in years. It’s a good feeling to be in this place right now. I hope you can understand that this is another part of my journey and that I have a limited amount of time to get my garden in and the yard work done as when it gets hot outside I won’t be able to go out and do very much. So I am going to enjoy this while I can… I do miss you all and think of you every day and I wish you could see all that I am doing and how great I feel right now! I will be back on a more regular basis soon and know that I have not fallen off the wagon and I am not depressed… just the opposite is true. Know that your love and support means the world to me and I couldn’t do this without all of you!
Have a blessed week my friends,