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This Is A Call Out

Saturday, April 17, 2010

I don't believe me.

I'm full of cheerful encouraging words. Full of ideas of how things are going to be different starting tomorrow morning. Full of promises and visions and knowledge.

Nothing changes.

I'm back up (and over) where I was weight-wise last Christmas, before I lost the last 10 pounds. Nothing changes.

I'm eating meat again, though I don't want to be. I want to be getting my protein from non-animal sources, want to be feeding my family healthy meals, being an example for my children and husband, parents and siblings. And yet... nothing changes.

I want to be a runner. Want to take the spare minutes to strengthen my body with Pilates, to limber my muscles and joints with yoga, to push myself and see definition by strength training. But I'm not. I'm doing nothing.

My clothes aren't fitting, and shopping is excruciating. The worse I look, the worse I feel, the worse I behave, the worse my choices. It's a cycle I'm all too familiar with.

And I can't seem to remember how to break it.
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    You can do it! Just think, if you did it once, you can do it again.

    Any positive step will help break the cycle--will help stop the spin.

    Also, I find I cook much healthier meals when I have people cooking with me. I don't know how old your kids are, but it can be a great experience for everyone to have them in the kitchen with you. As young as three or four they can help with mixing or kneading or other simple tasks.
    2890 days ago
    Baby steps. Choose one little thing on your very ambitious list to start working on (again). We all backslide. It is human nature. Don't be so hard on yourself. Tomorrow is a new day, without any mistakes in it :) You can do it, but you will be overwhelmed if you try to tackle too much at once. Start small and build up. 5 minutes of pilates. or one good nutritious meal for the family or a 15 min walk to clear your head....

    And sometimes doing something nice for yourself (a little pampering, manicure, haircut, girls night, etc.) can improve your mood and motivate you to try harder.
    2891 days ago
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