Saturday, April 17, 2010
I finally got my cast off this week. Yeah!!! It's been forever. And I have my first dance lesson tomorrow in 4 months. I am so excited...just hope my foot and ankle hold up. If all goes well I will be competing again in May for my first qualifer.
While I am excited I am way nervous too...I haven't been on the floor in 4 months, AND I'm kinda scared of getting hurt again. I know I have to take the chance...dance is a big part of my life. I worried about it so much that I didn't sleep last night. I know it sounds silly...but when I got hurt...it was so sudden and so unexpected...all of a sudden everything just was a blur of pain. And I can't seem to let that feeling go.
Also, I haven't lost the weight I thought I would while I was healing and rehabbing...and I'm a little embarassed that I'm going back on the floor this size. I'm not going to let any of this stop me of course...but my concerns are really dimming my joy a bit.
OK..just needed to let it out...thanks for listening.