Saturday, April 17, 2010
My gym doesn't have a pool. So on top of my membership at my gym I have a membership at the local rec center. 5 days a week I go to my gym and workout and then I drive to my pool and finish up. Frankly, I'm sick of it. I feel like I pay through the nose for all these memberships. So a new gym opened up close to my home that has a pool. YEAH!!! I visited the gym yesterday and everything is so shiny and clean and all the equipment is super new. . . but there's a glitch. No women's workout room. Which I love. I don't like displaying my sweaty crotch in front of men while doing the abduction machines. Or stretching in my most unflattering way while Bruno is staring at me from the corner. Or all the unflattering noises that I involuntarily utter as I am doing those last two reps. I don't know about anyone else, but I don't look great when I workout. And somehow I don't push myself in front of men. Call it vanity or being brought up to always "appear" ladylike. I don't know. UGH! I am super frustrated. Maybe my old gym works for me. Maybe I don't need to save that extra $15.00 by going to the new gym. Maybe I like having to drive all over town to get my workout. For goodness sake!!!! WHO AM I KIDDING???? I am switching it up!!! I will get over my fear of not appearing ladylike. Yeah I sweat. Yeah I make freakish noises when I push myself. And I don't always look pretty or appear ladylike. But I made a commitment to myself to live a healthier lifestyle. And not everything is going to be easy. Not everything fits into a neat little package. This is just another hurdle that I will conquer on my journey to a healthier me.