Saturday, April 17, 2010
I was doing sooo great yesterday. The day started out really awesome, but ended the same as it has since the hubby left with me binging. I have realized why though. It has to be emotional. I really never thought I was an emotional eater, but I guess I am. I just can't seem to stay focused.
My water intake has suffered also. I start out great, but I seem to slack off as the day progresses, forgetting to drink my glasses of water. The problem is that when I do drink the water, I am up every 2 hours during the night and then it is hard for me getting back to sleep. Every noise in the house seems to be so much louder during the night which just freaks me out. Hopefully, this will pass soon. as I get used to the hubby being gone.
I am exercising fine, eating great during the day, but at night, I am just starving. I have tried fillilng up on water, or brushing my teeth, or chewing gum, but nothing, and I mean nothing works. My stomach even growls telling me, or should I say shouting at me "FEED ME, FEED ME," so of course I cave in. I eat anything and everything in sight to just make the growling stop and then when it is all over, I feel sick. It's a vicious circle. HELP ME STOP, PLEASE. I have worked sooo hard in losing the weight that I have, I really don't want to be back where I started. I really, really need to stop. The willpower seems to have got up and left, I want it back. If I can quit smoking and still stay off the cigarettes for 1 year and lose 35 lbs. you would think I could continue, but I really need help. My hubby was always there to encourage me to stick with it, but he isn't now, and I need someone, or anyone to tell me to STOP and put it down. Does anyone out there have anymore ideas to curb this. They are not exactly cravings, I will eat anything I can get my hands on, even salad. Now everyone will say well that isn't bad, salad, but eating too much of even salad will result in weight gain and I sure as heck don't want that. Ideas, folks, I need ideas, NOW.