Tuesday, April 13, 2010
I am hurting. I want to work part time instead of full time sooo bad. I like my job a lot, but I also have a 4 year old son that I want to raise and a husband who needs more of me. It seems like I can't ever get housework done, and we eat out so much because I don't have time to cook what I'd like to be able to cook. I was very passionate about this idea last winter and had even drawn up a proposal for my employer, but I never went through with it. The ONLY thing holding me back is... Money. I would consider us to be middle class... if middle class even still exists. We, like most Americans have our share of debt, but we also always pay our bills. I am constantly looking for ways to save us money, but my husband isn't as frugal as I am. I need a radical change. We are still young and he keeps telling me, in the fall we'll be in better shape, but then something else comes up, so it gets moved back to next year we'll be in good shape... and in 5 years we'll be out of debt... I don't want to wait 5 years. I want to raise my child now. It's not my job that's the problem. It's the hours. I dwell on how many hours I spend at work versus how many hours I actually get to spend with my family. A lot of people would consider me so lucky to have a full time job with a set schedule and a decent salary... but I don't live my life for money! That's not what it's about to me! I am just so frustrated and confused. I really really could use some inspiration. My anxiety is breaking down my weight loss/life style change focus. I came out of depression back in January and I vowed NEVER to go back there. Right now I am right next to the fence. I don't want to go back but right now a battle is forming. Please spark people, give me some encouragement!