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In Need Of Change...Staying Serious Day 36

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Wish I could say I was feeling positive and upbeat about my journey this morning but I type this with tears in my eyes. I am feeling down about where I am on my journey or where I should be instead of where I am. I feel like I am my own worst enemy right now. I want to be making progress and instead I feel myself slipping in the wrong direction. Of course it doesn't help working around a very negative person either.

On the home front things are great w/DD. She is the light of my life. If I didn't have her, I don't think I'd continue staying in my marriage the way I have. My marriage is lacking some things and I wish I could just have a huge house where I could live in one part w/DD and he live in the other. Realistically I am sure that isn't a possibility but it works for me. My other option is find a place with a good friend of mine and she could take care of DD while I worked. Ahhh to dream...

I need to stop this feeling sorry for myself. I don't need to wallow in my situation. I made my bed and now I must lay in it. This applies to all areas of my life. It's time for me to really look at my life and stop making the poor choices I've made and start making emoticon choices. I don't need to let this cloudy soon to be rainy weather affect me and bring me down. I am worth more than this. I am better than this!

So after work I will go buy some healthier foods. I need input from my Sparkfamily. What's a good low cal replacement for oreo cookies & cream ice cream? No I haven't had a ton but I've had some last night and a tiny bit on Sunday. So I need to find some replacements so I don't go to the store and buy some bad stuff. I have tried Vitamuffins but I wasn't all that impressed with those. HELP! I need chocolate dessert options my friends!

I am not going to be envious/jealous of others who are further on their journey than I am. This does nothing for me in the long run but depress me further and in the first place it's rude. This people have earned every right to be where they are. They've worked hard to get where they are. Instead of reacting this way, I need to get my program and my @#%$ together. Then I will be able to join these wonderful people & friends. Negative energy breeds negative results.

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    Simone, I wish I could give you a big hug! You are a wonderful person and you deserve to be happy. You may have made your bed but you don't have to keep laying in it. You are right about the poor choices though - we all need to make good choices. I am working on that now myself. It is hard, but it will be SO worth it in the end. You take care of yourself and get healthy for both yourself and your DD. As one area improves, you can take on other ones.
    2895 days ago
    Keep moving forward, my friend! It's easy to get discouraged, but you can do this! You are strong and determined, and you do so much to motivate others. Slow and steady always wins. :)

    Have you tried Skinny Cow desserts? They're actually really good. Sherbet also tends to hit the spot.

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    2895 days ago
    Hey Simone, when I was sick I had my sister buy me some sugar free popsicles.. I had forgotten how good they are!! If you need an ice cream I think the Skinny Cow ice cream sandwiches are delish! Not an every day treat but safe enough for every now and then.
    Hang in there and stay positive girl! You have been doing great! Everyone has down in the dumps days... or even weeks!! You are an unbelievably strong woman who has influenced tons of people here -- just keep putting on foot in front of the other results will come soon enough!!
    2896 days ago
    OH Simone sweetie, i am sorry you are struggling today. We are kindred spirits you and I. I cant break the 20lb mark and ive been at it since november!!! I can also relate to your feelings on the same house separate living space quarters. You are so inspiring to others, just make sure you leave enough energy to be good to yourself. It is so worth it. One day at a time, slow and steady, you can do it!! Sending positive thoughts your way!! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2896 days ago
    Honey, don't we all dream & wish. lol Be encouraged & don't let him get you down. I am a junk food junkie & I am chewing gum right now for the predicament this weekend brought, butter cookies, red vines & McDonald's Creamy Shakes UGH!!! I am past & am moving forward. Oh, I love Edy's Grand 1/3 of the fat ice cream maybe they got something in the way of chocolate or fudge? Check it out. . .

    God bless & Good luck!

    2896 days ago
    Just keep pushing on.. I felt this way at first.. but it gets easier, (NOT THE WORKOUTS) but the actual act of getting up and doing them.

    I can't help you with the chocolate desserts cuz am not a huge fan. But just take a an hour of your day and just spend it at the grocery store. If you pick something up, Read the label. it becomes a habit trust me. and it take a while to find your grove and your routine.

    I still can't find the perfect sugary snack, I suck at it I just buy low fat flavored yoghurt. I like waitrose's yoghurts. and they have low cal lolly pops which I ADORE.

    I find that I enjoy working out the most when I got a lot of things going on in my life, it's a great escape from it all.

    Listen eventually, as long as you keep going, things will fall into place and you will find your way, and all of it will become a habit. Good luck
    2896 days ago
  • TREA241
    Losing weight totally sucks. I feel ya sister. It is hard work and giving up is a normal thing. I feel it at least two days out of the week, but once you have started the journey, there is no reason to stop. You are worth all the hard work you put into it. The ice cream you ate, that is in the past. Just look toward the future. Also try the Chocolate Jello Mousse. It is actually pretty tasty. Otherwise, I get Werther's Chocolate Hard Candies and those usually satisfy my cravings.

    You can do this!!! Keep your head up. You are worth it! xox -Andrea
    2896 days ago
    I need you to turn it around and write down something good about yourself or even think something good about yourself! I see tons of good things about you, that your not able to see right now !

    I believe you will get to your goals, it's a matter of thinking positive and doing what you need to do to get there. If you have doubts, (and believe me, I too have quite a few doubts that I have to work on!) then that's where the road will lead you! I think that is why I'm dancing around the same lbs. sometimes! And I think that is kind of what your saying too!

    For chocolate dessert replacement, that's a hard one for me to answer - I'm terrible with it in the house. I mean I'll tend to choose it over a fresh fruit almost any day. So I don't buy it, I walk by it in the store and ask, "do I really need it"? Yoplait makes a dessert yogurt, that I do buy - they're pretty good! I do have fruits in the house. These usually fixes our sugar cravings. I like to try different fruits, what ever is freshest or in season. The other night we had company and I cut up a pineapple into chunks and mixed in some strawberries, and that got got rave reviews because it's something people are not used to for dessert.

    I hope your day is going better - we believe in you!!!
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    2896 days ago
  • DARA52
    sugar free jello, fresh fruit, walnuts and fat free whipping cream. Or, use the nonfat greek yogurt instead of jello. And I put lots of cinammon on the yogurt. Chocolate soy drink mixed with a mashed banana in the blender... Buy a bar of really dark chocolate (85%), put a dried apricot and walnut on top of one square and yum....
    2896 days ago
    You didn't like Vitamuffins? I fell in love with them, but they're hard to find and they're expensive, so I don't have them often. I agree with Skinny Cow, Yoplait Parfaits, sugar free Jello pudding cups...I'm having a hard time right now ignoring the ooey gooey stuff, so I need to use these alternatives too. I'm really sorry you're struggling with things, but don't give up on yourself, and you know you'll have your little cheerleader with you all the way. I recruited mine last night to be my drill sergeant.

    2896 days ago
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    I am sprinkling fairy dust and sending many hugs to you today! You are normally upbeat but today's blog just shows me that you are human. We're all human! Don't be too hard on yourself. You will succeed on this journey. I just know it. Do you want to know how I know that? You are struggling and you reached out to your spark family. emoticon

    In terms of a snack, I love the new Jello Sugar Free Dark Chocolate Mousse Pudding Snacks...only 60 calories and they are delicious. In addition, the suggestion for the skinny cow brand of ice cream is really good, lower in calories and fat and they taste great. They have an ice cream sandwich that is quite yummy! This may be a great choice since you've been eating ice cream lately.

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    2896 days ago

    Comment edited on: 4/13/2010 10:22:35 AM
    emoticon emoticon I would say try the Raw route because that will eliminate all of your cravings because it detoxes your body. The preservatives leave your system as well as the sugar. The more sugar you eat the more you crave. Natural sugars are OK which is why I usually have a banana ice cream of some sort each day. I love them, they are healthy, and it replaces my sugar craves for ooey gooey and chocolate things.
    2896 days ago
    Just lurked at your blog, and I'm sorry your feeling down. Control what you can - the choices you make, and don't focus on what's not possible to change at this time.

    I really enjoy the new Yoplait Parfaits yogurt - Chocolate Raspberry. It's a pretty decadent 100 calories, and usually satisfies my chocolate craving.
    2896 days ago
    Simone....I wish I could just squeeze you and give you lots of hugs right now. It's going to be alright. Take things slow and do what you have to do to make yourself happy. You have one life, make it count. Only you can make the choices to achieve what you really want out of life. I've seen your posts. I know you have it in you. I'll put this on my prayer list.

    I also enjoy the Skinny Cow treats. Very yummy! I hope you have a good day today. Take care and keep us posted. emoticon
    2896 days ago
  • KARVY09
    Sugar free fudge pops and cook and serve sugar free chocolate pudding (I don't like instant) are a lot cheaper than the Skinny Cows and just as good.

    Keep moving and keep tracking!
    2896 days ago
    i love Skinny Cow ice cream! you should try that!
    2896 days ago
    Skinny Cow is the a brand that makes really good ice cream treats like cones, sandwiches and ice cream bars. They make an awesome cookies and cream ice cream sandwich that is only 100-150 calories and 2g of fat.... It is a much better alternative to regular ice cream both calorie, fat, and serving size wise.... They are a good size too so you do not feel like you are only eating a small portion!!! Best of luck with everything else that is going on in your life at this time...
    2896 days ago
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