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How I gorged... and still lost weight!

Sunday, April 11, 2010

And How You Can Too!
As Recommended by Oprah and Johnny Depp

(Well, no, they didn't really recommend it, but you have to admit: it's a great subtitle, and I'd sell enough copies to satisfy Borders & Immigration, of any country.)

I gorged... twice! And still lost weight!

I know, I had promised not to peek at the scale, but I was curious to see how much weight I had gained.

The great thing about weight plateaus is that one can start performing science experiments on oneself.

I'd been excessively "good" for more than 5 weeks. I nailed my calorie range every day, usually the lower end. I just said no to the chocolate chip bars that people brought to the office to celebrate a huge legal win, dripping with gorgeous butter and sugar. I drank water and green tea at a wedding shower and said no to the cake, the chocolate, the pastries, the sweets, the pizza, and the soda. I had broccoli and asparagus , which I love, at a dinner which featured an Easter ham, scalloped potatoes, and German chocolate cake..... and who knows how many Easter bunnies, eggs and jelly beans?

After all, I was there for the social life, the companionship, the celebration, the friendship, the....... you think I didn't l-l-l-lust after all that salt and sugar?

Guess again. But I'm eating healthfully, and my body likes it. I don't want diabetes. I don't want high blood pressure. I like the way I'm feeling. I want to hit the middle of my healthy BMI range. I like wearing skirts that are too short for women my age, except I don't look my age, so I just have to rock it. Also, I would like to see the - scale - just - move.

I nailed my exercise, too. I have 14 weeks of consistent exercise every day. It might be more. I stopped looking. Yes, I admit that I enjoy it. I groove on working that elliptical, rocking that bike, pushing that yoga. Sweat pouring, warm muscles, hair getting a little wet, soaked salty workout clothes, seeing a little definition here, a few muscle lines there. It just feels good. I don't mind the extra laundry. Mmm-mmm.

You think I didn't want to kick back on a few lunch hours and rest some tendons, complain loudly, "Oh blimey, the red house painters are here!" (translation: TOM), put my feet up and read, shoot the breeze out back with the gang on break?

You bet I did. But... my body likes this way of living. My muscles like the way I am making them feel, the way they are stretching, getting stronger, the way my heart beats more slowly and more powerfully, the way my lungs are taking in more oxygen. I like how much more weight I can lift, how fast I can move, how good it feels inside my skin.

I still wanted to see - the - scale - move, though. The tape measure did. What was I doing wrong?

Apparently, I hadn't cut ties with that ol' demon Perfection. I won't bore you with details of my insane upbringing, but I know from whence the perfection-addiction arises.

Friday, I put in an 18 hour day, because I am trying to book it on outta here, and I had work to finish up. I have places to go and people to see! I had to get home, do my veterinary care, grab a few hours of sleep, and be back in the early morning for my last day. I was hungrier and more tired than I have been in a long time. So I gorged!

The amazing thing was that I reached for and gorged on... almonds! And they were gooood. Unsalted almonds. Oh, an extra 200 calories, but those were probably the best 200 calories I have ever eaten.

But that wasn't enough. Oh no. I had some deep, dark 85% cacao, darling. That's right... deep dark chocolate. Another 190 calories. And that was the best chocolate I have had in months.

Oh well, I'd been on a plateau for a couple months, despite being "perfect". So, I ceased attachment and decided to play mathematician. A lady nails her calorie range every day and burns at least 500 per day. Her metabolism is stupid. Will 390 extra calories make her gain ten pounds? Let's get out the lab books, shall we?

I got up the next morning, weighed myself for the sake of science, and.... LOST 1/2 a pound!! WHAT?!?!

Well, I weighed myself again, because clearly the scale was broken, or the oxygen content of the atmosphere was wrong, or the planets were out of alignment, or some factor was not considered. Nope. The scale had moved!

Just to be sure, I weighed myself today. Non-believer that I am, surely physics is with me. No. The scale showed....1/2 pound LOST! Huh?

Either the world has ended, or I have discovered "calorie cycling". I'm going with the latter. This is incredible. Calorie cycling! Who knew? Not me. I like it, though. I am gonna mess with my body's head, which technically is my head, but maybe my head can use a little messing. I'll eat a little bit more one day, confuse my metabolism a little, eat a little less the next day and shake it up once in a while, so my body doesn't know what's coming. I do that with exercise. Why not my eating?

I'm also dumping that ol' demon Perfection.

So today, I gorged again. Why not? It worked before. So I gorged on....
Bill Lewis' poetry. If you want to be distracted from eating mindlessly, if you want to swoon over poetry that is romantic and sexy and gorgeously strange, if you want to hear fabulous meter and sound and experience imagery that will make you forget chocolate and pizza and reach for ice water, I highly recommend it. It's the kind of stuff that makes me cry that I didn't write it, and weep that something this exquisite exists here on Earth. Mmm,mmm, Perfection.

Well, maybe I'll just dump my food-attitude addiction-to-the-scale Perfection.

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    I loved this blog!! Thank you for sharing!! I loved how you described yourself now that you are exercising!! Keep up the GREAT work!!!
    2894 days ago
  • EVLOBOS310
    I've done this too! It does make a difference! I love that you picked healthy foods to 'gorge' on though - much better than chips and cupcakes :-) Keep it up! emoticon emoticon
    2894 days ago
    i know EXACTLY what you mean. In the past I've experimented with exercise cycling, but not much with calorie cycling (although I've read up on it and considered giving it an "official" try)

    I know I've unofficially cycled calories and LOST weight during a week I was sure to gain. CONGRATS on the mini gorge - it seems to have paid off.

    and for the record - I *lmao* @ "I am gonna mess with my body's head, which technically is my head". Before I read the whole sentence I was thinking 'I hope she knows her bodies head is HER head. :op That was WAY too funny.
    2895 days ago
    Congrats! I heard that it is good to splurge once in a blue! And look! You splurged and lost 1/2 pound! Thats awesome! I hope your new calculations for your weight loss works out well! lol

    I gotta say you have such will power and I am tellin you that is so inspirational! I am a sweets feen and if I was at a wedding or an easter get together where there was oh so yummy cake I would have caved in! You are such a strong person to turn the other way and say "I SPIT on you cake!"

    Keep up the good work!
    2895 days ago
    Great blog. Congrats on all of your hard work!!!

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    Keep on rocking it, gorgeous. Cheers.
    2895 days ago
    Great blog. I like your idea of gorging on poetry, but the chocolate and almonds sound good, too.
    2896 days ago
    Gorging has just achieved a new meaning for you...it does work, doesn't it...Keep up the good work!
    2896 days ago
  • ROWAN532
    i am so proud of You.

    This has now become a lifetime commitment to me and i am sure to You to make sure that the weight stays off, and learning new eating and life habits.

    Its amazing to feel the burn, when your body just wants to stop and so do you, but pushing one self to achieve more each day is amazing. i never thought i could do more than 2 miles a day, and now i am actually running one mile and walking three.

    i know the temptation of food, like You, i sat a table ladened with food on Easter, and ate minimal.....did i want to eat that WHOLE bowl of potato salad..........YES.....but settled for a small tablespoon full.

    Its tough, and we are starting to win the battle, ........

    stay strong Goddess, and keep that most positive attitude........

    2896 days ago
    girlfriend i can so relate to the cal cycling because i've seen the scale move downwards when i do the same thing. and thanks for the tip on Bill Lewis, although lately i've found a personal source that's been hitting all those notes to perfection. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2897 days ago

    Comment edited on: 4/11/2010 10:58:28 PM
    ..... *blink, blink* I have to say... that was one of the MOST motivational blogs I've read in a long time. *blink, blink*
    I also have to say that I'm glad you've discovered how to rock yourself off of the weight loss plateau. I used to do that when I was a yo-yo dieter. That's why I refuse to hit the same calorie line on consecutive days if I think about it. I try to have at least a 50 to 100 calorie difference between days in order to make my metabolism not booger out. Congrats on the 1/2 a pound, and Keep It Up! emoticon
    2897 days ago
    "...my body likes this way of living. My muscles like the way I am making them feel, the way they are stretching, getting stronger, the way my heart beats more slowly and more powerfully, the way my lungs are taking in more oxygen. I like how much more weight I can lift, how fast I can move, how good it feels inside my skin."

    I am very happy for you that you got through your plateau!! YAY!!! But I HAD to comment on the above part of your post. I LOOOOOOOOVE this description of the way you feel because of exercising and getting healthy!! LOVE it!!! Mind if I print this out and post it on my mirror to read as I get ready to exercise each morning???


    2897 days ago
    I think you found an answer to transfer that gorging to something else than food. Keep up the great work. Brightest blessings and warm hugs. emoticon emoticon
    2897 days ago
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