Saturday, April 10, 2010
This is my first week where I didn't lose anything. Actually, I gained a few. I knew this was bound to happen eventually, so I should have prepared myself for it. But I guess there's no preparing for a step back, because you want to keep making progress and moving forward, but perhaps that's a bit unrealistic.
I'm a bit disappointed in myself, as I know that I was the one who ultimately caused this to happen. My workouts have been fabulous, one of my biggest weeks of working out to date. I added in the Biggest Loser Cardio Max video to my routine, and totally love it. It's quick, and it really works up a sweat! I know 'they' say don't gauge a workout based on how much you sweat, because sweat is just cooling your body, but I admit I do. If I didn't sweat, I wouldn't feel like I pushed myself to my full potential.
Anyways, my point is, it wasn't a lack of working out that caused the gain. Definitely my food. Two nights ago I went to a movie and was convinced I needed a snack for it (old me, coming back to haunt me). So we stopped in the bulk candy section and ok, so I got a little bag of gummy bears. Yeah, they were good, at the time. So much so, that I ate all of them. I can't even tell you how sick to my stomach I felt afterwards! It was like a rock was camping out in my stomach, oh my god, I wanted to make myself throw up that's how uncomfortable it was. But I didn't, I just vowed that I'd workout extra time yesterday, and I did. Another day, I made a pasta dish for lunch, loaded with veggies and my soy chicken strips, and normally I save half for the next day. Yeah, definitely ate both servings. Felt guilty about that too.
So, a few hiccups this week has set me back. I just need to refocus, and know that I can't allow myself to lose control, I have GOT this. I'm halfway to my goal and I can't lose sight of how important it is for me to get there. Old me would probably throw in the towel right about now, and somehow rationalize that 20(ish) pounds is good enough, but that's not who I'm trying to be anymore. I need to push through this and give myself a good kick in the ass - you're not there yet and you can't slack on what you put into your body!