Friday, April 09, 2010
I spent part of the month of February and most of the month of March in medical testing, evaluations and various procedures in preparation for lung transplant surgery. So, I had maybe 2 days each week to exercise and was pretty much off my routine. This was not good because I thrive on routine and consistency. By not exercising, I was off of my schedule and also off of my eating plan. Each day when I went to the hospital or clinic, I packed a lunch or snack of fruit, nuts, water and sometimes a sandwich. There were times though that I had a breakfast sandwich because I had time between appointments. Also, after one really gruelling, painful procedure, I was feeling vunerable, helpless and defenseless. My sister asked what I wanted to eat. I told her something decadent, understanding that I wanted to lick my wounds with food. I did! I had bbq ribs with all the fixins'. I felt kinda bad, but I knew exactly what I was doing...emotional eating to assuage my pain. Immediately after the last test, I went to a fundraiser in my hometown three hours away. I spent a week there and only exercised once! Of course I watched my eating but took some liberties!!
Now I'm taking the month of April to get back on board and get to ground. I have a major weighin next week and I'm watching my choices very closely. I am thankful that I can recommit instead of throwing in the towel, as I might have done a few years ago. I'm getting back on the boards and involved in the discussions so that I can stay motivated and challenged.