WHAT WAS I THINKING?!?
Tuesday, April 06, 2010
How is it that I thought that the best reward for not eating something was to eat it later!!!???!!!
Is that a joke?
Where did I come up with that idea?
On the other hand, does that mean I can never EVER have my CCE (Cadbury Creme Egg)?
But I WAAAAANT it....
I reeeeeally waaaant it...
(can you do whining in type? Is there a special font you're supposed to use? I've heard people say, or, actually, seen written that there should be a special SARCASM font. I guess that would probably have saved a lot of hurt feelings and misunderstandings via e-mail and text message...)
I guess this forces me to address the idea that if I truly want to make a sustainable lifestyle change I have to simply ERASE the idea that food,
any kind of food,
can be used as a reward,
I think I need to change my emotional currency.
But then what?
Mani/pedi - Obvious choices.
See, a CCE is 99 cents and all those things are at least 20 times that, or in the case of shoes 50 times that, plus a fight with the husband about how I do not NEED any more shoes. He just doesn't get it.
But then what? Where do you go after that?
I guess I COULD justify spending $ on myself since I'm not eating nearly as much as I used to...
I read once about saving money, per pound. I think it was that a roll or two rolls of pennies equals a pound so once you've saved your weight (other than being a visual and tactile reminder of how much weight you've lost), it's twenty or thirty or fifty or ninety bucks to spend on yourself and it's not really a drain on your wallet, since you're only putting away a dollar or two a week...
I'm thinking of maybe adding a dime for every 10 minutes of exercise...
But just so we're clear, I'm not eating that egg!