I don't blog alot, but I am today so I can get some of my frustration out. My DH and DD are driving me to tears. They are like oil and vinegar and I don't know how much more I can take. My 13yr DD has a bad attitude at times and other times she is the sweetest girl. She gets straight A's, doesn't cause any trouble in school, we never have to get on her to do homework, but her attitude SUCKS. (Lord please grant me the patience to get through these teenage years. )
I always feel I am in the middle of my DH and DD. One wants me to stand up for what he says the other wants me to stick up for her. AHHHHHHHHHH!!! I don't know how much more I can take. My DD says my 9 yr old DS is spoiled and gets what he wants even though my DD has been to 2 Miley Cyrus concerts and is going to a Justin Bieber concert in August. My DS hasn't ever gone to anything. I think my DH favors my DS and blames alot of stuff on my DD, but he says that isn't true. My DD doesn't show much respect for us, doesn't do anything but get on the computer and text on her phone. I go around picking things up after both my DS and DD. I know I am to blame for the laziness since I usually do most the chores around the house, but I am a perfectionist and don't like to have to redo things that they did. That is a different subject that I need to work on.
I just want to know my DD and DH aren't the only ones who are at each others throats. She has threatened to run away, but never has. My DH has threatened to leave until she is 18 and moves out. I just don't know what to do anymore. I keep asking myself if it will ever get better. I wish my DH would realize that she will be gone in a few years to college and I wish my DD would realize her dad won't be around forever.
Please spark friends pray that they can find a happy medium and just get along. Pray that they can learn to walk away when tempers start to flare and talk about it later. Pray that my sanity
will stay in tact as I raise a teenage DD and a moody DH.
I also think my DH is addicted to pain killers, but won't discuss it with me because he swears that he is definitely not addicted. He has chronic back pain and has been on pain meds for 2 yrs. He was in the urgent care Friday night because he was in so much pain and they gave him Tylenol Codeine which he said didn't work, Saturday he went to the ER because he couldn't tolerate it anymore they gave him some pain meds. I was so mad, but didn't say anything. I am the one who handles the finances and our insurance SUCKS, so I have to deal with all these flippin' medical bills he racks up. I feel so bad for him for his pain, but is it in his head or is it real?!?
I started going to a new church this year. I was born and raised Catholic, but just wasn't finding what I needed so I started going to a non-denominational church and love it. Very different then the Catholic church. I hear God's word more then what I did at mass. Anyway I have always wanted my DH to go with me because he is not religious and I think alot of his problems would be worked out if he just handed them over to God. Well last week he finally decided to try it out (after many years of me praying for that). I was in tears at church because I had my whole family with me, I didn't look like the single mom with 2 kids anymore. It looked like a "family". He went again yesterday for Easter, well the Pastor made a statement about husbands should come to church with their wives instead of staying at home watching sports. He said husbands may get something out of it if they come to church with their wives. Well DH didn't like that. He thought the pastor was putting judgement on him. I agree in some sense, but I was just waiting for him to come up with a reason to get out of going to church with me and yesterday he found that reason. So back to being the lonely wife sitting in Church with her 2 kids.
Sorry I didn't want to turn this into a "pity me" session, but I am just really frustrated right now and just don't know where to turn. I know I just need to believe God has a master plan to bring our family closer.
Thanks for opportunity to vent!