Monday, April 05, 2010
Yesterday was a tough day in several respects. I had no particular plans with anybody for Easter, and that was very different for me, because I had been married for a long time before recently separating from my husband. And also I had some communication difficulties several times during the day with my ex concerning scheduling times that I could spend with our 17-year-old daughter.
In the past, emotional difficulties often contributed to my overeating. I got very heavy during my 19-year marriage to a man who was hard to live with. I'm not blaming him--it was my response that was the problem. In counseling, I learned that I probably should have left him years ago, for my own emotional well-being, but I lacked the clarity to do so until more recently.
Anyway, yesterday, as I felt my feelings of loneliness and frustration, I didn't overeat. In fact, I had to make myself eat a snack last night in order to get anywhere near my nutritional goals for the day, because I had undereaten by so much. I'm not saying this is a good thing. It's just different. It's a change of old patterns that didn't work well for me. So I'm just observing this and sharing it for now, and let's see where it goes!
I'm sure hoping for a better day today. I have a new volunteer position starting today that I think will brighten my Mondays and help me establish more of a routine in my life, which has been lacking for several months.