Friday, April 02, 2010
Okay so the assignment for this challenge was, 'Write a blog sometime this week and remind yourself why you started this journey."
Wow! There are a number of things that I could say here, however I'm a believer that the hardest is the one that causes the most growth. So, I'll blog on that.
Last year about this time (3-18-09) you remember this kind of date as it affects your life so profoundly. My family was told that our Father had 3 months to live. He was dying of a rare form of cancer, mesothelioma. There was nothing that could be done for him. Nothing, that was hard to except but except it we must and try to enjoy the little time we had left with Dad. We had 2 different family reunions as not everyone could make it at the same time. We were also able to celebrate Dadís 77th birthday on June 1st and then his home going on the 18th day of June. We have a very large family there are 13 children & spouses, 46 grandchildren & spouses, 56 great-Grandchildren & spouses, 4 great-great-grandchildren, thatís a total of 119 decedents from Mom & Dad. I along side of my Mother cared for my Dad for the next 3 months. We had days of joy and days of tears and the fear of loss. My Dad was concerned to have to leave us all behind, especially Mom one day he talked with me about taking care of her when he was gone (Iím the oldest of his 7 children). During that talk he said ďYou have to take care of yourself to be able to take care of Mom.Ē I knew what he was talking about as I was experiencing a lot of medical; problems most of the common ones associated to being over weight. My Father died exactly 3 months to the day, on June 18th.
For the next 2 months, I found that one learns to live with the loss, the tragedy, the waste, and the gaping hole in the fabric of one's life. There is no closure, nor would I want one. I want to remember him all my life, vividly: his laughter, the smell of his Aspen cologne just after he had shaved, his moments of joy, his humility, and his integrity. So on Aug. 13th,2009 I found SparkPeople and joined. Thatís why I started this journey, because the end of Dad's earthly journey.
Daddy you are greatly missed.