Thursday, April 01, 2010
In the last 5 months I have been hospitalized 4 times. I've spent a total of 2-1/2 months in the hospital, including 3 weeks on life support and a few more weeks in the ICU. Yes, I was very sick.
The good news is that I am home now and recovering. Unfortunately, while I was sick my father died. Also while I was sick, I missed the deadline on my new book (I'm a novelist). With the help of my daughter I managed to deliver the manuscript a few months late and my publisher was kind enough to wait.
Since I've been home I can't stop eating. I'm not hungry, I just want to eat. This is new for me. I have returned to SparkPeople for support and inspiration and have come to realize I'm trying to calm anxieties about my health and grief over my father by feeding them to death, or at least into a stupor. Just understanding that has helped. The other thing that has been most helpful is logging in my food. It's so much harder to cheat when you see those calories etc in black and white.
That's all I have to say. Just blogging about it helps because it makes me focus instead of mindlessly chomping on something.