Thursday, April 01, 2010
Ok so I guess I need to explain. I am so stressed out because I was told on Tuesday that my mom's cancer is back. It has been in remission since November. I really thought the worst was behind us.
I am depressed because I feel like I'm never going to get to move away from not so DH and back to TN. I can't believe how close we were to being gone. In fact on Tuesday, the very same day that we got the news about the cancer, the apartment complex that my mother wants to live in in TN called and they had an apartment for us. I can not believe that it was very much in sight and now who knows!! I just want to cry even more!!!
I am depleted because I feel like everything I have done is falling apart. I have tried so hard to get into a healthier lifestyle and now it just seems that I can't do it because of stress, being depressed and just feeling like things will never end. I just want to go to bed. My energy level is as if I have drained of all body fluids and I'm just a sponge. I don't have the desire to make myself exercise or eat what I know I need. I feel like I'm drowning!!
LORD, I can't wait for you the pick me up and help me out of this situation!!!!