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Stressed, Depressed, Depleted

Thursday, April 01, 2010

Ok so I guess I need to explain. I am so stressed out because I was told on Tuesday that my mom's cancer is back. It has been in remission since November. I really thought the worst was behind us.

I am depressed because I feel like I'm never going to get to move away from not so DH and back to TN. I can't believe how close we were to being gone. In fact on Tuesday, the very same day that we got the news about the cancer, the apartment complex that my mother wants to live in in TN called and they had an apartment for us. I can not believe that it was very much in sight and now who knows!! I just want to cry even more!!!

I am depleted because I feel like everything I have done is falling apart. I have tried so hard to get into a healthier lifestyle and now it just seems that I can't do it because of stress, being depressed and just feeling like things will never end. I just want to go to bed. My energy level is as if I have drained of all body fluids and I'm just a sponge. I don't have the desire to make myself exercise or eat what I know I need. I feel like I'm drowning!!

LORD, I can't wait for you the pick me up and help me out of this situation!!!!
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  • v PURPOSEPOWER95
    Oh girl I am sorry. Me and my mom are very close. I do not know what I would do if ....well I will not go there. I will pray for strength. God wants to uplift his children. His ears are not closed to their cries. Dear Lord please uplift in this situation. Bring comfort, send your power down and let it surround in her spirit. There is healing in your presence. There is peace in the midst of a storm. and in your presence cancer has to bow to your name. You are the God that heals all our diseases, and the uplifter up of our heads. When the enemy comes in like a flood the the spirit raises up a standard against him. Remember no weapons formed against you shall prosper. Lean Christ each day. emoticon
    2239 days ago
  • v -WRKNG2ABTTRME-
    emoticon emoticon I don't know what to say...I know from my experience of wanting to go crawl off in a hole and see no one...that sometimes words are a big waste of air and time. Just know that there are many people at Spark & Rita's Retreat that really care about you. I know you've heard this before...but, take it one step, one day at a time...that's really all any of us can do. My thoughts & prayers are with you.

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    ~Nancy~
    2239 days ago
  • v DSHRBURR4
    Heavenly Father please wrap Your loving arms around this sweet family and hold them tightly in the palm of Your hands. Amen.
    2245 days ago
  • v ANNARUTH2
    I'll be praying for you and your family! Just take care and know that we are here for you.
    2246 days ago
  • v TOBEARUNNER
    Oh Donna, I'm so sorry about your mom and everything you're facing right now. I'm with Tracy -- aim low and you won't be disappointed. Every day that passes where you are able to get out of bed and support your mother and son and feed yourself is a successful day. And when you're feeling a bit more in control, you can add in things like drinking water, and going for walks. Just try to take care of your family right now. And we'll try to take care of you. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2246 days ago
  • v FLGIRL_4EVER
    Hang in there, know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. You are an amazing woman and please remember that. I am so sorry about your mom's cancer being back. Please let me know if I can do anything for you.
    2246 days ago
  • v MRSHONEYC
    Just remember: Everything happens for a reason.

    Maybe He HAS picked you up - but you're still looking for visual signs. Maybe it's time to stop LOOKING and start DOING.

    (I'm SUCH a philosopher!!!)
    2246 days ago
  • v TRAYINTEX
    Donna, sweetie! Maybe you don't need to focus on "healthier" right now. Maybe you just need to focus on surviving life's latest challenge the best way you know how. Look, "healthier" is not an ALL OR NOTHING thing! It's really about doing what you can when you can. THAT'S HEALTHY! "Healthier" can wait until you have some of YOU back! Hang in there! We're with you!! Just keep calling out for support! You'll get through this!
    2246 days ago
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