got in four hours biking today. no walking with ms. leslie.. just couldnt do it. ah well.
i also got in a bunch of ab and leg exercises.
i weighed in at 225lbs today. glad about that.
got in all my water today and ending the day at 1600 calories exactly.
so i saw on my friend feed that one of my good friends is struggling. why is it that we struggle? me included. i am on a roll now but it might only take a bad day for me to begin struggling again.
i have been on spark for almost two years. i have seen so many of my fellow sparkers just disappear. i would like to think they are out there, fighting the good fight on their own, but my hope on that is low. i am one of the most alone people i know. spend all day alone. pretty much alone in this weight loss journey in real life. [the only one who attempts is the boyfriend but he and i are not in it together really, and we definitely do our own things] i am one of few people it seems who doesnt really mind being alone. that being said, it does get hard doing this alone in real life. and i know that if me, miss alone, struggles with it sometimes, most others do too.
it is sad to get to know people and then just see them "fall off the wagon" and give up. it is sad to not know how their journey went. sad..just sad.
this is being prompted by seeing someone's status on my friend feed that really upset me. i dont know why sometimes we struggle. i dont know why it seems so hard sometimes but not others.
but i do know that you arent alone. and i am here. for anyone who is struggling. i wish i had magic words, a magic wand. something to make it easier. something to take the pounds off. the hurt away. i wish i could do that, cos i know i would like someone to do that for me.
but since that cant be done, all i can give is my words.
dont give up. even if you just take a five minute walk or get in your water that is a victory. and its what you deserve.
i said it on my other page.. i believe in you. it doesnt mean much but i do. i know you can do it. cos i am doing it, and i am one of the weakest people in the world. i struggle every single day.
hell, i struggle every single minute, to be honest. with food, working out, giving up, giving in.
i can do it.
and so can you.
and i would like you to be here with me.