Monday, November 06, 2006
Well, it is Monday, the day before I start back to work...I am really struggling, believe it or not, with guilt. I SHOULD have been more productive. I SHOULD have read more books, and watched less TV. I SHOULD have lost more weight while I was off....and so on....and so on....The reality is, I spent most of the past five months in excrutiating pain, and was too drugged to do much of anything. Funny, whenever I look back on life, I forget the bad parts...I think that is a GOOD thing, tho probably not reality based. It is just weird to feel like a door is closing on a chapter of my life, that I really want to forget.
Finally, the scale has shown some movement. I have been stalled for over a week...first gained a bunch, then stalled. I am now down to 217. Guess I should change the ticker. It is Monday after all...I am now feeling more confident in reaching 200 before the end of the year!
After eating such rich foods Saturday night, and then again yesterday morning, hubby and I took a lovely walk through the Capitol Park...we are so fortunate to live in a place that has a beautiful capitol building and lovely grounds surrounding it. I could actually keep up with him. We did 50 minutes....did stop at the firefighters memorial and the rose garden for a few, so figure it was closer to 30 minutes of walking. The most I have been able to do post op! I am on my way. I just can't wait to really start moving! I imagine, my "hole" will have to be closed before I can use a machine, or put any stress on the abs what so ever.
Tomorrow is the big day. Today, I am going to do laundry, see the doc, go to Walmart to find some cheap clothes (I donated so many away this past week!), and try to get some sleep for the early rise in the a.m. I WILL miss not having to wake to an alarm every morning!