I was just looking through my old blogs and I think I may have found that motivation I used to have. I have been really lax this semester and gained back 10 pounds (YIKES) that I lost last semester, and I hate to think that all the work I put in to my body has gone to waste. I am in a much better place, emotionally, than I was last semester and because of that I have had no drive to go to the gym, to count my calories, and to make good decisions. I went to the gym today for the first time in a week and a half and I feel great though, so I am going to try this again. I am going to keep up with sparkpeople. Here are my goals (not that anyone cares, but I want to outline them somewhere!):

1. Drink 100 ounces of water a day (5 bottles total).
2. Work out at least 5x a week.
3. Stay within my caloric range (1400-1700 a day).

I did all this last semester and I felt amazing. I felt clean and energetic and lighter. I hate that I have not met any of my new years goals, but there is no better time to start than the present. Some of them are not possible at this point but I will start over now with new goals. I can't apply for any more internships at this point, which means I will not be working this summer. I did apply for a few things but no one accepted me. Being academically rejected, as I like to call it, was really painful but when one door closes another one always opens. Instead, this summer I am going to focus on spanish and take an online class so when I get back to school in the fall I will be prepared for advanced grammar. Thankfully verb conjugation is a strong point for me anyway!

I also can't reach the weight I wanted in time for my formal at this point. However, my dress does fit me so I will be ok on that front. It actually looks good anyway, so maybe I weighed more in high school than I remember! In the meantime though, I am going to set some new weight goals, and they are as follows:

By my formal (4-17-10) I will have lost 5 pounds, bringing me to 215.
By the last day of class (4-30-10) I will have lost 5 pounds, bringing me to 210.
By my brothers birthday (5-24-10) I will have lost 5 pounds, bringing me to 205.
By my brothers graduation (6-13-10) I will have lost 5 pounds, bringing me to 200.

I am not going to plan any farther, but that is what I am hoping for right now. I am looking for my dedication right now, and hopefully I will be able to find it. I just made a new work out playlist on my ipod which I think will help. My music was getting really old, but I think what I have now is good. Because I am procrastinating, I will write it here for everyone. Feel free to use these!

I'm Shipping up to Boston- Dropkick Murphys
Remember the Name- Fort Minor
Play your part- Girl Talk
Cousins- Vampire Weekend
Don't Trust Me- 3OH!3
I know You Want Me- Pitbull
La Gasolina- Daddy Yankee
Lo Que Paso, Paso- Daddy Yankee
American Boy- Estelle, Feat. Kanye West
When I Grow Up- Pussycat Dolls
TiK ToK- Kesha
Monkey Wrench- Foo Fighters
Pump It- Black Eyed Peas
Use Somebody- Kings of Leon
Walk it Out- Unk
Still Here- Girl Talk
Through the Fire and Flames- Dragonforce
State of Massachusetts- Dropkick Murphys
Bohemian Rhapsody- Queen

Well, here goes! I need to get to sleep now, because I am planning on working on when I wake up. I hope I have found my motivation again!

Love,
Jennifer