Wednesday, March 24, 2010
So, I still have the mind of a 260 pound woman even though I am now a 170 pound woman.
I see the waitress heading towards a booth in a restaurant and I cringe- then I remember- oh! I have worked my tail off and can totally fit in that booth!!
I see those guys looking at me - and I want to run away bc I know they are talking about how fat I am then-oh! I have worked my tail off and totally deserve to be looked at!!
I hear my kids asking about going to the theme park this Summer- and I dread it bc I know there is a chance that I will not fit on some if not most of the rides then-oh! I have worked my tail off and can TOTALLY ride anything in that darm park!!
I walk into a clothing store and automatically look for the "womens" section then-oh! I have worked my tail off and don't have to wear plus size any longer- I don't even have to wear the "I can barely fit into regular sizes size-xxl?"
I need to shop for a bathing suit- you know a MOO MOO with a skirt then-Oh! I can wear a normal bathing suit- infortunantely, I will not be seeing a bikini probably ever again, but I can wear a NORMAL bathing suit- FINALLY!!
I don't have to pull and tug at my clothes
I don't have to dread going on hikes
I don't have to make my fiance stop bc his "legs are way longer than mine so he is making me walk too fast"
I don't have to look at him and wonder what such a flippin' hot man is doing with me- being overweight- bc I noe match him- I am finally arm candy!!
**I know that this blog must seem that I am hung up on myself, but you know, when you have spent most of your life with 0 self confidence and then you decide and actually follow through with the fact that you are going ot lose weight- I think that you deserve to be PROUD or stuck on yourself- if only for the time being!!!
**I am MICHELLE HUNTLEY (soon to be) I am a RECOVERING FOOD ADDICT- I have been sober for almost 1 year and have lost almost 90 pounds with my own sweat!! Please know that if I can do this, anyone can do this!! Bekka!!!!!! WE are doing this girl!!!! WOOT!