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The mind of a 260 POUND WOMAN!!!

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

So, I still have the mind of a 260 pound woman even though I am now a 170 pound woman.

I see the waitress heading towards a booth in a restaurant and I cringe- then I remember- oh! I have worked my tail off and can totally fit in that booth!!

I see those guys looking at me - and I want to run away bc I know they are talking about how fat I am then-oh! I have worked my tail off and totally deserve to be looked at!!

I hear my kids asking about going to the theme park this Summer- and I dread it bc I know there is a chance that I will not fit on some if not most of the rides then-oh! I have worked my tail off and can TOTALLY ride anything in that darm park!!

I walk into a clothing store and automatically look for the "womens" section then-oh! I have worked my tail off and don't have to wear plus size any longer- I don't even have to wear the "I can barely fit into regular sizes size-xxl?"

I need to shop for a bathing suit- you know a MOO MOO with a skirt then-Oh! I can wear a normal bathing suit- infortunantely, I will not be seeing a bikini probably ever again, but I can wear a NORMAL bathing suit- FINALLY!!

I don't have to pull and tug at my clothes

I don't have to dread going on hikes

I don't have to make my fiance stop bc his "legs are way longer than mine so he is making me walk too fast"

I don't have to look at him and wonder what such a flippin' hot man is doing with me- being overweight- bc I noe match him- I am finally arm candy!!

**I know that this blog must seem that I am hung up on myself, but you know, when you have spent most of your life with 0 self confidence and then you decide and actually follow through with the fact that you are going ot lose weight- I think that you deserve to be PROUD or stuck on yourself- if only for the time being!!!

**I am MICHELLE HUNTLEY (soon to be) I am a RECOVERING FOOD ADDICT- I have been sober for almost 1 year and have lost almost 90 pounds with my own sweat!! Please know that if I can do this, anyone can do this!! Bekka!!!!!! WE are doing this girl!!!! WOOT!

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
SDOUGLAS8 5/24/2010 10:25AM

    Awesome blog! You are doing great and you totally deserve some "bragging time!" Keep it up!

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LOVEBLACKWOLF 4/19/2010 5:55PM

    Awesome post. Thank you for sharing.

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KYMMC3 4/7/2010 11:15AM

    THANK YOU for sharing that!! I am SO looking forward to when I can feel that way too!

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VANESSAM123 4/7/2010 9:10AM

    What a wonderful post... thank you... makes me more determined to pick up the slack!
WELL done... you have not only lost 90 lbs... by looking at your pics I think that you have also lost 15 years!!!

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HOPEFUL_NIC 4/1/2010 9:29PM

    Congrats--I really loved this post--I have been working really hard and am looking forward to seeing the pay-offs you describe here. So happy for you!! emoticon

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MOXIE-IN-MOTION 4/1/2010 7:40PM

    I am so completely proud of you! And i can totally relate to the whole mindset issue. can be really hard to retrain your mind and think like a thin(er) chick.

Congrats on your weight loss.....and for being PROUD of it!

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KAY-SUPREME 4/1/2010 6:28PM

    This is awesome. Seriously.

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SKINNIXMINI 4/1/2010 2:34PM

    Congrats on your weightloss! You worked hard and now get to live your life to the fullest! Way to go! I can't wait to be able to feel the way you do now. =D


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STEPH-KNEE 3/24/2010 9:23PM

    I am so glad you are able to change your way of thinking and reminding yourself you deserve all the good that came with your weight loss! I am around the weight that you started at, and I hope when I get to 170 I will be able to change my way of thinking... I worry about that often. Congrats again!! :)

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JESSICALYNN0102 3/24/2010 2:22PM

    This so motivating! It is such an amazing feeling to love yourself...inside and out. You go girl. Congrats on your success! emoticon

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BEKKASHAY 3/24/2010 12:55PM

    Yes we are girl!! I could cry reading this I am so damn proud of you!! XOOXOXXOXOXOOO my life would not be complete (or as happy) without you in it!!! YEAAA WOOT WOOT!!!

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SKBOYD 3/24/2010 12:50PM

    That was so motivating to hear as someone who is 250! I feel a lot of those insecurities at times! But you are a DONE girl and thats amazing!!!

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