Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Hay everyone. Sorry its been so long since I have written a blog. When I work it is such long hours that I do all I can to just log it and that can be hard also. I just wanted to say WOW. This last job was so physically demanding it was really something. What was so good about it was I was able to keep the pace. In the last year it was getting really hard to work because I hurt so bad and felt horrible. Now I have energy and feel like working. We moved thousands of pounds of steal on this job and mostly by hand. I made myself stay right in the middle of the really hard work. You know the kind no one wants to do. Well I feel it paid off in so many ways. One I feel stronger and two I gained some respect back that had been lost over the last year from those I was working with. But the best part is the personal satisfaction knowing I stayed with it and did the hard stuff and I am very proud of myself for doing it. I see the changes in myself. I see the definition in my arms and chest as the fat melts off and I rebuild muscle I have not seen in years. My wife has even commented the other day I was looking really good. I have to be patient for the gut to come off. They say it is the last thing so I will have to be patient. I found the photos of me when I was 21 I was looking for I am going to use it as my goal to return to that weight. I was 190 when I was in Scotland and intend on getting back to it once again. I am so glad I started sparks but most importantly I am glad I have found the strength to do the journey. I can say that it has come from God and all my friends who have been so supportive, but most importantly from my dear family. This week my little girl turns 12. As a father this has been one of my greatest challenges to face, my little girl is growing up. It helps me stay focused on my goal to be healthy. not just for me, yes that is very important but to be for her also. As well as my son and wife. To make sure I can enjoy the highest quality of life possible with them and the most time God will give me. This summer I intend on being able to do fun things with my kids and family. To do this I must be steadfast in my journey and become more fit and stronger. In my heart I know it can be done. As all of it I have days it is hard and almost imposable or so it would seam. It is in those moments I turn to my Lord to help me find the strength I lack to pull me through it. I am so grateful my faith in him and true desire to achieve my goals helps me make it through the hard days. These past four weeks at work posed some interesting challenges. I found working nights can mess up your metabolism big time. I dont think I lost weight but I know I did gain much definition though the work. I could not cut my cals back past 1600 because I had trouble when I did. But I notice my body burned the cals different. So I may try to avoid night shifts if I can so I dont have issues with the weight loss. More research into this will be needed to be done in order to see what type of cals one should have when working nights. I was so uneducated when I started this journey. Now I look for information to help me and I learn to be better. Funny I learn how to be better by study and research and then apply. Before I thought it was all application and that's it. No wonder I failed so much. So much yet to discover. Take care my friends and keep on moving.