Friday, March 19, 2010
As I sat here adding my nutrition, I started thinking about the fact that I am starting over with trying to lose weight yet again. I know I'm a strong woman because I've had enough trials in my life to prove my self. So, why do I keep having to start over? Why do I feel so worthless and such a financial drain on my family. I don't have the answers to these questions. I know I DO NOT want to look like a beached whale all my life! I've been doing the best I can to make good choices for the food I'm eating. Most of the time, I practice portion control if I am having something high in carbs. So what is wrong with me! Why is it that every time I start to make progress, something goes wrong? These past few weeks, it's been dealing with fluid retention. I've gained over 20 ponds of fluid and am having a devil of a time getting it off and keeping it off! I can't stand very long because of generative disc disease in my spine. But I do still manage to keep my house fairly clean. Today is just one of those days that I feel like I'm fighting a losing battle! But, all that said, I'm still NOT ready to give up!!!!