Friday, March 19, 2010
This plateau is hard, especially since I was seeing such great progress the first 3 weeks. I knew I would plateau, but it's still frustrating. When I lost 70 lbs. a decade ago, it was so easy because I wasn't trying. I didn't own a scale. I discovered a beautiful trail around a canal where I started walking every night before work, then it progressed to running because walking was too slow. And I used to think running for sport was dumb, but then I grew to love it. I wouldn't track my time or heartrate. I just tried to run to the next landmark and lengthen the run each time. I was experimenting with being vegetarian, and I was living alone and sometimes too lazy to get the ice cream out of the freezer, let alone cook. I was working 2 jobs and going to school. I don't remember starving myself or going hungry. I do remember lots of frozen bean & cheese burritos, steamed broccoli/carrots/cauliflower, big batches of veggie chili frozen and eaten over a period of weeks, eggs & oatmeal, bananas, etc. My grocery budget was about $20 a week, but I ate well. And the 70 lbs. just sort of fell off in about 7 months.
Maybe I should shelve the scale and the measuring tape.
I do feel great, though. I have more energy, less pain (except after a jarring run on the treadmill--best stick to ellipticals and bikes for now), and I just feel better in general. Even on my weekly "free day", I usually don't want to go back to my former way of eating. Two weeks ago, I had a piece of birthday cake, and I couldn't bring myself to eat more than a smidge of the homemade buttercream icing. I was a former cake decorator, and my favortie part of the job was sucking the icing out of the bags & licking the icing bowl when I was done decorating the cake! I did go a little crazy last week, just to see what would happen. I ate 8 vanilla sandwich cookies on the drive home from the grocery store and I just wanted to toss those cookies, in a manner of speaking. I now find myself occasionally trying hard just to meet my minimum calorie count some days. I am so grateful for this change that is taking place, slowly but surely, and I hope permanently.
"Start where you're at."