Thursday, March 18, 2010
Itís 4:50 AM. The gym opens in twenty five minutes and I will be there. It simply comes down to the fact that I said I would be there every day for forty minutes. I will be traveling all day to day and by the time I return home, I know I will be tired. I know I wonít change my clothes and head for forty minutes of invigorating cardio!!! So at 4:40 AM I drug myself out of bed and got dressed. Itís cold and I am not quite awake.
Because I looked myself in the mirror three months ago and said I would. I said Iíd honor the commitment I made to myself. Itís not all hearts and flowers and Spark Goodies. They are nice, they are appreciated and they give us a sense of belonging and friendship.
What kind of friend would I be to you if I didnít honor my commitments? What kind of example of health or motivator do I become if I donít do what I said Iíd do. In that case Iím not even honoring myself.
Thatís the most important thing. I could tell Joan and my friends and the kids that I ďover slept!Ē No one would know. I would. Iíd know I fudged on a commitment and then Iíd start fudging on a lot of other commitments and all of a sudden I am back to where I was three months ago --- lying to myself.
Donít pin an award on my chest. Iím not walking out the door with a huge grin on my face. A very large part of me would rather be under the bed. Iíll do my work out, shower and head for my first appointment of the morning. Iíll get home late this afternoon. No, this was not in my top ten things to do today.
I can lie to you all day and all night and in a lot of respects you would never know. I cant lie to me anymore. I can be something Iím not or I cant say something I donít mean. It is the very small things in life that make up the total fabric of a large and beautiful tapestry. It can be very small actions that push us to great victories or by the same token unravel the whole fabric.
Sorry this is short. I have to honor a commitment I made to myself.
Care to join me?