Sunday, March 14, 2010
so ive been thinking of what i want to do now, now that ive reached my all time goal. (still cant believe i made it lol!) im pretty sure i want to loose more weight, but the question is, how much? its a hard question because im actually very happy with where i am now (which is awesome). i mean, im very happy with my clothing size (8/10), im in the best shape of my life, and my self esteem has improved dramatically. my fitness goal is easier to decide, because you can always try something new and different, and make new goals for yourself. but weight is different, cause at some point you need to stop.
everyone around me is telling me that i should stop loosing weight now, but i disagree. dont get me wrong... im not looking to loose alot more. but i do have some areas that i would like to improve. for example, i would like to loose a little more fat from my tummy, my inner thighs and my arms. of course its not easy to loose weight from specific spots. but i would like to loose a little more fat. the problem is though, when i tell people this they roll their eyes. some people have even said "it sounds like youre going the other direction. youre going to become anorexic". this bothers me because its so not true! i am in no danger of becoming anorexic. and i guess its a little insulting to think that people assume that would happen after i worked so hard to conquer my old eating disorder. im realistic about my body... i know im never going to look like a fashion model, and i am perfectly a-ok with that! but the fact is, i do want to loose a little more. im very very happy with my size! i just want to loose a little more fat, thats all (and believe me, i still have plenty of it lol)
so now im trying to decide if i want to set a new numeric goal, like loosing 5 of 10 more pounds, or if i just want to loose weight until im happy. but the problem with the latter is it would be hard to have a goal to reach for. i mean, im happy with my pant size, like i said, so i wouldnt be shooting for a smaller size. i was thinking of maybe having a goal for my waist measurement, but i just have a little bit more i want to loose, and i have no idea how many inches that would be. besides... truthfully i dont know if what i have on my tummy and thighs is fat, or if its loose skin... because after being so overweight most of my life and loosing 90 lbs, i definitely have loose skin. and i accept that ill probably always have it. dont get me wrong... ill take the loose skin over those 90 lbs any day! please... those are like my battle scars, lol! probably, its a little bit of both, fat and loose skin. so im thinking of setting my ticker to a new goal of 145 lbs or 140 lbs... what do you think?
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