Tuesday, March 09, 2010
Ok when I say I can see the light at the end of the tunnel I don't mean my end goal is near, I am talking about the sun and the spring and leaving all the winter depression behind. I always knew that I had a mild form of seasonal depression. It started about mid January and lasted until sometime in March (usually St. Patrick's day even if the weather was not cooperating because that was my sign and start to spring). This year though it took on a whole new spin. When the crazy snow started in the February I was excited. Just like a 6 year old praying for no school there I was wearing my pajamas inside out and hoping for lots of the white stuff. Low and behold we got it. 18 plus inches, then 3 days later we got another foot, then a few weeks later another foot. UGH!!! The white pretty flakes were no longer a happy sign coming out of an otherwise blah gray sky. I was tired of it, I was cold, and for some reason I was ALWAYS HUNGRY. With snow brings the need for comfort food. Every time I felt like I was motivated on the right track the snow would come and my ability to live in moderation and "be good" went out the window and all I wanted to do was eat. The motivation I once had (my Fitness February) turned into me in comfy clothes bundled up under a blanket watching movies as the snow came down outside. My weight went up and down all through February and here I am March 9th no different from where I was the beginning of February. I guess the good news is I didn't completely ruin the progress I made and in the end I'm still down 6 lbs from the beginning of the year which is awesome right?
I'm hoping the sights, sounds, feels, and smells of spring in the air is my ticket to getting back to where I need to be. The ability to refocus on what is important to me and working towards that better version of me.
This past weekend marked 8 months till my wedding day and the end of this month marks 3 months till I'm a bridesmaid for one of my good friends. I refuse to be a fat bridesmaid and more importantly I want to be a skinny - HEALTHY bride.
I guess all I can say is the snow has melted and I see a fresh start for the grass to come alive again - guess it's my turn too.