Just out of reach....
Monday, March 08, 2010
Have you ever had the "That's It, that's how it works" or "Yes, I understand" or any of those other revelations that change your life. The thing that turns on the light bulb and you feel accomplished, directed, orientated, or (insert some other motivational word here).
Well, I have the feeling that, that moment is right in front of me, but I have no idea what it is, or where it will take me, or if it is really there. I have "glimpses" of something, have dreams that I wake up from recharged, and excited, but when I try to remember what it is, I am blank.
I feel like a horse with the apple being dangled in front of me. It is so... what's the word... It is just right there.
So to make this story even longer... Amy and I have started a new budget system (Dave Ramsey), we have started cleaning / selling stuff around the house, working with the kids to help them plan for the future, working on the house, .... so we have lots of projects going all (and all of them are good, and moving forward), so they are all great and positive, and I am excited to see all of them moving forward. I don't feel like there is anything lacking in my life. My job is fun, I like the work, I don't dread going to work. I am so in love with my wife, and kids are wonderful (well most of the time). So I am not looking for anything.
So it confuses me even more why i feel like there is something just right there, something that will make a life changing moment, when I am not looking for or feel like I need anything.
OK, enough rambling, to those who have read this far, thanks for listening to my rambling.