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Sunday, March 07, 2010

I have nothing of interest to say. Right now it is just more of the same. I am doing well mentally LCing, but I am finding the rate of weight loss to be frustrating emotionally. I fear I will lose motivation. I'm angry with myself for caving to the well-meaning "suggestion" to regain weight; I'm angry with Ken for suggesting that I regain weight; but I know I am the MOUTH that ate the excess food that put on the pounds, and the mind that chose the foods that I KNEW would put on the pounds. I know that I am the weak person who wanted to be loved so much that I did this to myself!

CARBS ARE ADDICTING! Sugars are poison for me!

I no longer want the invisibility that fat affords. I no longer am willing to tolerate my waddle, or my bad knees, or my ill-fitting clothes. I don't want new clothes; I want to be thin again! I want to feel pretty and attractive again. I want to feel healthy and energetic again! And I admit it -- I want to be young again.

I did TRY, but I can't turn back the age/time clock. But I CAN lose this weight. God give me patience!

I wish the anger would burn itself out. Better yet, I wish I knew how to USE my anger to achieve my goals faster: be a stronger & better person, be thinner.
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  • CURLY916
    Your hubby sounds a bit like mine. In the beginning we started Atkin's together - I lost and so did he, but not as much. And he hated giving up his nightly wine (he's a winemaker - so I can only ask so much). But 8 years later, I am still LC and he is not - although he does sometimes limit bread and he has never been much of a sweet eater. The similarity I see is my DH kinda likes me to be overweight. He would also like me to stop coloring my grey hair. He feels insecure and does not want me to attract attention from other men. He has his reasons - I am his 3rd wife - the other 2 left him. I don't have any plans to dump him, but he is concerned nonetheless.

    I am not hugely overweight, but at 5'8" I am not crazy about hovering around the 200 lb mark. I have been maintaining in the lower 190's for about a year, but I'd love to get back down to the lower 180's. I was there for a while in 2008. It is frustrating that it takes so much more effort at our age (53 in June) to lose any weight. And the 2nd or 3rd time around on Induction never gets the same results you get the 1st time.

    The Eades have an interesting book on Getting Rid of the Middle Aged Middle. It involves mostly protein shakes with one LC meal/day. I would like to try it, but I know my DH would gripe. I have him trained now to make B'fast for me everyday and I don't want to mess that up! He makes eggs for us every morning and I make salads for our lunches. We switch off making dinner.

    Sorry to hijack your blog with this long post, but your comments really struck a chord.
    2779 days ago
    I can relate, after one week on low carb I was hoping to be down atleast 5 but was only down three. I took me along time to put on this weight and I carried it a long time so I guess it will take me time to take it off. I must say though I feel alot better.
    2780 days ago
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