What is different this time around?
Friday, March 05, 2010
I have been asking myself, what is different this time around? What exactly has changed in my life and attitude to make me continue on this path to a healthier lifestyle?
I was 237 lbs when I got pregnant last March. This is the heaviest I have ever been in my life. At 28 weeks pregnant I was diagnosed with Gestational Diabetes. I was sent to a diabetes center and put on a special diet. I had to prick my finger 4 times a day to check my sugar levels. When the diet wasn't enough to control my sugar, I was put on Glyburide. Between the medication and following a very strict diet, I was able to control the GD and had a healthy baby girl in November 09. Which to everyone's surprise at 6lbs 11oz was small for a GD baby. We were expecting her to be much bigger as most GD babies are.
I was told by my OB that because I had GD the chances of me getting Type 2 diabetes in the next 10-20 years tripled. This scared the crap out of me. I have known for a very long time that I needed to change. I needed to lose weight and be more active. I chose not to. I chose to continue eating like crap and sitting my happy ass on the couch.
I kind of got a jump start on my weight loss. Because I had to follow such a strict diet, I didn't gain any weight during my pregnancy. So after my daughter was born I lost about 18 lbs right away and I liked it! So I chose to keep going.
This time around I am doing it for me. Not to "get the guy", not to please anyone but myself. To become a healthier me and to set a better example for my children. THAT is what the difference is, THAT is what has changed in my life. My attitude. No longer am I thinking " I can't" or " It's too hard". Now I say to myself " I CAN do this" "It is a challenge, but I am ready"