Wednesday, March 03, 2010
March 3, 2010
Ok, yesterday ended with a disappointment, a big one. I was good all day, I went to the gym after work and did interval training on the elliptical for 40 minutes. I was all sweaty and felt so good and satisfied! Then I went home, I ate what I should (cheakpeas and chicken breast) and then ... I heard something calling my name from the fridge! I knew I should have left the kitchen right after I had finished my meal. But NO! I wanted to respond to the calling, a delicious chocolate cake with white chocolate on top. And what was the result? An awful feeling afterwards, it was a mix of disappointment, failure, and physical discomfort. And then tears came to my eyes once again.
So, one day lost. But, I won't let it win. I won't lose (the fight, because I want to lose pounds!). Today, I woke up early and went to the gym before work to lift some weights. I'm planning to go after work too, for an interval trianing session. And then for dinner I have a plan: I'll take my plate and leave the kitchen, I'll go to my room and eat there, then, immediately after I finish eating, I'll brush my teeth and ONLY THEN will I enter the kitchen again to do the dishes.
I promise that I'll do what I mentioned above. I refuse to have another night of crying because I wasn't strong enough, because I gave into temptation. Monday was good, Tuesday was bad, but Wednesday will be better, better than Monday that is!
What I have to realise is that the first week will probably be difficult, because, yes, I'm addicted to sugar, that's no secret. But I want to believe that I am stronger than sugar!
Actually, I've come to believe that weightloss is a mental thing. I know everything I need to know in order to lose weight. I know what I should eat and what I should avoid. I know I need to exercise, to eat right, to drink water. I know all these things and yet I haven't lost a pound and of course this is because I lack the necessary determination, or to better put it, I lacked.
To conclude, a new day, a new begining, a new chance to do a good thing for Phoebe. I lost yesterday's fight, but I didn't lose the war!
Good day to everyone who reads this!!!