Tuesday, March 02, 2010
Today has been emotional rough for me. When I woke this morning, I found that my son's fish, blubby died sometime overnight. I was a mess, I knew she was ill but had been trying to help her, but was not successful. I did not want to tell the kids before school this morning, so I got myself together and hoped that they would not notice. They did not but I spent most of the day wondering how I was going to tell the kids that the fish had died. I picked the kids up from the bus, and told them that we would need to go home to talk. By the time we got home, the kids had figured out what I wanted to tell them and they were both in tears. We spent a good 25-30 minutes crying and hugging and crying and hugging some more. I got the kids focused on homework and a snack to distract them , so they could get themselves together.
The kids know that the fish is now in heaven with my grandmother and they want to bury the fish in the backyard, so we will be doing that tomorrow, for it was raining this evening and too wet outside to try to dig a hole and bury the fish.
I never imagined it would be this difficult to tell my kids that the fish had died. We knew she was ill but it was not easy. I don't think I will be able to handle when something happens to one of our cats which we have had for over 13 years now. One of the things the kids kept saying was "we still have them" as they kept hugging and petting the cats.
WOW, what an emotional day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!