Tuesday, March 02, 2010
I have been doing so good since I have been on the BLC. I get so much encouragement from reading all the post on my team thread ...I am even in the top 10 of all the people that are on the whole challenge, which gives me more & more incentive to keep going....BUT! I am trying to figure out WHY I got up this morning with a yearning for ice cream. There was about 2 cups left in the freezer this morning & now it is gone!
OK, I logged it on my nutrition page....NOT GOOD NUMBERS!!! Now I am trying to figure out why today, of all days, did I give in to my temptations??? I am not going to be critical of myself, I just want to figure out WHY. I am trying to recap why I might have done it...Was I feeling deprived? Was it because i was so tired from my job? Am I pushing myself too much?
I was going to go to the gym last night after work, but when i got home, I was just too tired. Work was really rough from unboxing a 1700 piece truck. (there is only four employees.) I went to bed shortly after getting home. I slept til 8:45 this morning (my day off) When I got up, I was still tired. I ate shortly after I got up. Had an orange, some almonds, a yogurt. While thinking about what else I could have, I remembered there was ICE CREAM in the freezer! This Icecream has been in the freezer for 6 weeks at least. It has not bothered me one bit up until then. Then I thought I HAD to have it! I savored every bite of it. I started thinking about the consequences the last two or three bites of it, but I kept eating. Now, I have not done any amount of anything. I am feeling depressed. I have not gone over my calories for the day, but I am going to have a hard time trying to get all my nutrients in & not go over in my alloted fats. ****SIGH***** Lesson Learned???? I hope so! All is not lost for one day of misbehaveing. I will go to the gym & work to try to even this out...My weigh in is tommorrow...I don't want to be dissapointed...