Tuesday, March 02, 2010
I saw one of the "hot topics" listed was how your journey has affected your kids. My first thought - I really hope it hasn't. That's why I'm pushing so hard now. I have to succeed before she's old enough for me to give her diet and body issues. Maybe someday she'll look at pictures of her as a baby and say "wow mom, you were fat!", but it will be past tense. Right now she mimics me, but doesn't fully understand. Yesterday when I finished my Wii workout she ran over, grabbed the Wiimote, and climbed up onto the balance board (I have it on the lifters to make it a real step). It was so cute. I want to encourage a healthy lifestyle, with good food choices and activity, but in more of a "this is just how we live life" rather than a "I can't eat that if I want to lose ___ lbs before ____." Long term I hope this journey affects her in that it helps me to raise her right. I wound up with body issues when I was 12, and now I worry about how successful I can be. I never thought I was thin enough. So no matter how healthy I get, will it ever be enough? I'm hoping that having put on so much weight my perspective will be a little better. I don't want my daughter going through the same pain I did.