Trying to get back on track for the 5 millionth time.
Monday, March 01, 2010
Why is it I can never stick with a program? It's always a good reason to be stressed out and forget about my diet, this time my grandmother that I was really close to died and we didn't get back to the states in time to see her, and we moved into our new house finally, all in the same week. But did gaining 3 pounds by drinking wine and eating chocolate really help make any of that less stressful? And it is always something. i am just realizing more and more, it is always something. There is never going to be a time when our lives are not hectic. Maybe when we are retired or something. In another week my husband is going to go to South Korea for the week and I will be here by myself in a new house and a new country. Great excuse to drink too much wine right? He's back for a week and then goes to India. No one coming home at night to talk to or help out with the toddler just makes me lose my mind, another great opportunity to totally abandon my diet. Then beginning of April we have to go back to the states for grandmother's memorial, week after that friends coming to visit and touring wineries, at the end of April back to states by myself for the other grandmother's memorial (it's been a rough year for grandmothers.) If I am always waiting for life to be calm and not stressful to stick to my diet, I will never do it. And this is how I go month after month after month and never actually lose any weight. Lose a couple of pounds, then gain them back, over and over and over again. I am so sick of it. Being unhappy with my weight is not making life any less stressful. But how do you fit it all in? How do you stick to something that for me takes so much focus when you are functioning on autopilot? I have to stick with this until this becomes the autopilot. But how do I even get to that point when I just feel like I never have the time to even think? I'm starting with this: going to start drinking chammomile tea instead of wine (and then the inevitable chocolate after I've had enough wine) when I am feeling totally anxious. That should be something....
Oh, and does anyone know how to track your weight in pounds instead of kilograms?