Sunday, February 28, 2010
This was a great weekend to make a quick assessment. Unexpectedly we drove to our country home and going home always provides perspective and a chance to hear yourself think.
I haven't been to sparkpeople in a long time, but this weekend was a good time to check in. Looking back to the last time I wrote a blog entry was quite instructive. I remember being so frustrated in 2008. The frustration caused serious change: I hit the gym regularly, went to lots of fitness classes, got serious about my nutrition and at one point I thought I had IT ALL FIGURED OUT.
Intermittent trouble became more than that. At first it was subtle...kind of cramping in abdomen, then later more symptoms appeared until it was difficult to remain in yoga classes. Eager to sort out the problem, I started asking teachers for suggestions. Long story short: symptoms worsened until finally I (embarrassed)dropped out of all classes. I tried to remain consistent in gym attendance until eventually I quit lifting weights. Finally, even running on treadmill became a nightmare.
Last summer a crisis of sorts...and ended in me being diagnosed with celiac intolerance. Oh, my weight was down, but who wants to be thin and unable to eat almost anything? Medications helped and eventually a change of diet restored almost everything. But unfortunately, that wasn't the end of the problems.
Suffice it to say, I'm ready to put all that behind and move forward now. It has been a long road. The best thing is I can remember February 2008 and what a difference just a few months of focusing on my weight made! The summer of 2008 became one of the happiest, most productive summers of my life. And it all started with being frustrated and ready to change.
That is where I am again. And Tuesday, after our return from the middle of nowhere, God willing, I'll be back at the gym, ready to start over. And yes, I'll dutifully weigh myself Tuesday morning.
This time, though, I hope I'll be more faithful to write down some of the details of the journey back . Looking back, during that summer I ran 13.3 miles one day...and I want to do it all again. Step by step as I became stronger physically, I became more content. That contentment is what I desire most. And the running free, sweat pouring off my face, and having the time of my life--I NEED THAT. And finding friends along the way to share it with...I can't wait. Surely it can all happen again!