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My Day Off

Saturday, February 27, 2010

I weighed myself this morning. 148lbs! Only a lb away from my first GW. But today is my "day off". I got one a week, where I can eat a bit of what I want.

I've been out for lunch with my friends today. I had a roasted vegetable and feta wrap with salad. I didn't eat the chips. We had icecream after. I purged that.

Tonight I've had 'stirfry' veg (no oil). Then I had pudding! Some Ben and Jerrys as my weekly treat. I haven't purged that. But I have taken laxatives and will do a saltwater flush tomorrow so I'm all empty.

I like having one day where I can... be a bit normal. It's usually a Saturday when eating is part of socialising. Two weeks I'll have my brother's girlfriend's birthday - Chinese. In three weeks, my brother and sisters + extras are coming over for drinks and a curry. That's why I have to be so good during the week.

Me and T had an argument this morning. I was trying on clothes. They were baggy tops that made me look fat. He said I looked nice, but I told him I looked fat. He doesn't understand that women - not just me - have a need to dress how they look thinest and that to me means emphasising my waist, the thinnest part of me. I tried to explain... He said he doesn't want a girlfriend that's obsessed with being thin.

I'm not obsessed with being thin. I'm obsessed with food. I'm obsessed with control.
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FRAN-SOLEIL 2/28/2010 11:01AM

    I think you look fabulous in all of your photos, so your bf is probably being honest with you when he says you look great. But I also know that how we think about ourselves is the most important.

I'm glad you took the day off. Yesterday I took the day off too. Tracking is sooo tedious sometimes. We had a family meal at an Italian restaurant, and I am sure I at least doubled what I should have eaten for the day.

But today I am back in control. Limiting myself to a 1500 cal max, and hoping to run 5k this afternoon.

Enjoy the rest of your weekend.
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PAISHAR2 2/27/2010 4:45PM

    Stop obsessing and thank God for all you have done so far. Remmeber God took a day off and and you need one too!!!!! You have worked hard and this is your reward to yourself!!!!!!

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