Saturday, February 27, 2010
My mother died when she was 56 from heart problems. Before her death - for a number of years, she was unable to even walk around the block without having to stop several times to catch her breath and recoup physically. She weighed over 300 pounds. She used to have thick hair as I do, and it had thinned. I didn't realize it then, but I do now looking back - her body was dying. Her heart didn't have to strength to properly send nutrients to all her body.
Abuse was a big problem in my family. My father beat us children, and my mother did nothing about that. Instead she became depressed, bitter, and gave up. It showed through her weight and her attitude. She, in my opinion, committed a slow suicide. She was dead while alive.
I don't want to die while alive. I have inherited some of her defeat, but I am here on Sparkpeople to live. I will not die while alive.
I need a weekend to re-group. This is my weekend.