Thursday, February 25, 2010
Normally I do not see myself as I am. I have no idea what size I really appear to be (even though I know what size my clothes are). I even had a weird moment a week ago the other day when I ran into a friend in the store who said "oh my gosh, look at your waist" and then proceeded to touch it like I was pregnant. Odd moment to say the least. And still, I don't see it. I will say that I do love those slightly tinted windows outside of stores and buildings that make me look a little longer and thinner, all super model like. Bless those windows! Yet, I know that's not real either. BUT today I had a moment.
Before spin, I hit the Gravitron Plus in an effort to firm up and lose that weird band of fat around my ribs, my chest, under my arms, and in my armpit area. And thank goodness I can do that again since I am pretty much healed from the injuries. :-) Well I set the weight, got in position, and placed my knees together, letting myself hang like a monkey. I started lifting myself for the pull ups. I caught a weird bit of light in the shiny metal. Up and down I went, and there it was. I returned my focus to what I was doing and went for the dips, and then back to the pull ups. As I was hanging there, it dawned on me. That bit of weird light I was seeing was light shining through my thighs. No, I am not invisible! What I mean is that my knees were together as I knelt on the pad, and okay so my upper most thighs still touch, but in the middle area, light actually was shining through. Thinner thighs! My thinner thighs, and I realized it and see it in myself!
Now, if I can work out the rest of my image issues and see what others do...I suppose right now I am a peach walking around on shapely straws. :) Don't worry, I am determined not to see myself as a peach forever!