Wednesday, February 24, 2010
I am down but don't count me out.
The morning that I was supposed to start my Y not b a lose program and the Y-I was so excited! I got up extra early with a plan to go do some weight lifting at the gym and then return home for an hour of cardio on my treadmill- then it was going to be off to work.
Well-----the best laid plans and all that jazz-------------
I fell down the steps. I thought that I was on the landing and did not see the final step. I missed it and broke my fibula and damaged my ankle joint, stretched out all the ligaments and tendons in that foot and ankle. I am SOOOOO disappointed.
This all happened on monday. I was in such a whining, "oh the pain" mood that I purposely waited to log on and blog about it. The fracture is not stable and I can feel the bones sliding and moving. I believe that is the bulk of the pain. I also am not used to navigating on crutches. Wow, makes things that I need to do very difficult and time consuming. Hate to admit, but took my first real shower today.
It could be worse. I don't know what I would have done if I had fractured an arm also. My employer seems to be cooperating and I have hopes that something can be worked out for my return to work. I have an ortho appointment tomorrow to see if I need surgery or not. I just fear the pain that is going to be caused as they move my foot and ankle around. I don't want to make a fool of myself screaming.
Also.....very strange that I have thought of this----I cannot weigh. My love affair with the scale is on hold. There would be no way to get an accurate weight at this point. I have been watching what I eat and decided that this is not the time to "throw in the towel" and start pigging out for comfort. Food will not make this pain go away! I am eating less and reminding myself that I am burning very few calories laying around all day. I actually have plans to return to weight lifting at the gym when I get my permanent cast. Too dangerous with the splint that I am wearing now. I figure, why let the arms get weak? Nothing is wrong with them and I miss all the "regulars" at the gym.
My friends from work have been great. My biggest problem is getting transportation for my child. I have lots offers to transport him, load off my mind.
My biggest fear is what will happen at the ortho appointment. How do you make someone that does not know you at all, understand that even though you are obese you are still very active. How do I tell them that I want to get back to running and please remember that as you make treatment decisions. As much as I fear surgery I would rather that if it makes me able to do my fast walking and running again. I just need to speak up for myself and make certain that they understand.
I may be down, but don't count me out. I need to modify and move on. Spark Community- if you have activity suggestions that can get me through this or any food suggestions that have helped you through a time like this please let me know-