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Still asking, what HAPPENED?!

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Spark "people" I have let myself go. I mean, Ive let mySELF completeley GO!

I feel like I lost a race I was once winning. This time last year I had lost almost 20 pounds! And guess what? I gained it ALL BACK! I feel just as fat & worthless as I did originally. I feel very worthless.


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PRETTYLITE 2/24/2010 4:08PM

    It is hard to reprogram the way we think and feel. Being overweight is truly a disease ....but something we can get better from. Wiping slate clean and starting over. You have already taken responsibility SO STOP beating yourself up. Now what are we going to do from here...get you back and keep you on track. I'm here for you!!!! Are you ready to make the commitment? I've fallen off and beaten myself up BUT in the end its just discouragement and discredit. WE ARE worth it! We dont want to feel like this anymore...lets fix it TOGETHER! You are beautiful...no matter what! We can do this!!!

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DELITESUGA1 2/24/2010 3:44PM

    Welcome back to SP and the team. We all fall down but guess what it is up to us to dust off and get back up. Try again, we are here to support you. I have lost and gained, lost and gained, and this time with a complete lifestyle change it will be permanent. Please dont give up and dont be mad with yourself.
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JANEYINMADTOWN 2/24/2010 3:13PM

    Welcome back! We're here to support you....and you taken the first step by coming back and getting restarted on your healthy journey!

NEVER, NEVER feel worthless...we are all human and sometimes life gets in the way...

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GABBERT4 2/24/2010 3:09PM

    I know exactly how you feel. I have lost weight 2 other times, and both times gained it ALL back plus some. The second time I felt so defeated and discouraged. I had just resolved to be fat. I climbed back on this wagon January 3. It hasn't been easy, but I have seen that I can do this with God's help. Not only can I do it, but I should do it. YOU are not worthless. You deserve being healthy for you, you are worth making time for those healthy decisions. You can do it. I will scoot over and share my seat with you. Climb back on and take one day, one moment, one meal, and one choice at a time.

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ORCHIDGREEN 2/24/2010 2:26PM

    No one is worthless. We are all here for a reason. Just think that you were able to do it last year so you can do it again this year. I don't know anyone that hasn't gained the weight they lost as least once. Does a smoker quit the first time around....not likely. The idea is to pick yourself up again and discover what it is that makes you fall and try to not fall again. emoticon
P.S. You already made the first step by being here at spark people and logging in.

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JANNYPANTS 2/24/2010 2:21PM

    I find one of the hardest things to do is be kind to myself.
You are worth infinite x 1,000,000 ampules of love - for yourself and, from Louise Hay,
"Deep at the center of myself, there is an infinite well of love, I now allow this love to flow through me and send it out in all directions and love returns to me multiplied. The more love I use and give, the more I have to give. The use of love makes me feel good."
I say this affirmation sitting, or running and it really helps me to feel the love.
When I go to a fitness class after being away, I say, this is for me, I will just do what I can...and that works for me.
Hope this works for you too. emoticon

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JASMINEBASHEA 2/24/2010 2:19PM

    First off, you're not worthless! I was feeling this way recently and I sat down and thought about all the positive things about myself. So, you know what you have to do now? Try again! Don't give up:)

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