Wednesday, February 24, 2010
I think itís often over looked in our precise calculations on life, love and a journey towards happiness. For some strange reason we discount it as being too easy. If life isnít a struggle at every corner and at every turn, then I guess we arenít investing enough of our self. Too some, if we embrace it we are considered weak and without direction. Itís called simplicity and simplicity gets a very bad rap.
I have found it to be a really good antidote for stress. The less encumbered my life becomes the less I have to worry about. The less I worry the more room for joy, peace and that vision of the REAL me.
The real me is not the person created by everyone elseís expectations. Thatís the me that turned to food as a solution, became obese, complicated my life even more and was in borderline despair mode for awhile. Itís the me that takes the time on a Saturday morning to sit down with some soothing background music and explore the things that make me so very unique. There are thirty two of them and they are never far from me. I read them aloud, I laugh a bit and I go on my way. It takes maybe 10 minutes. No need to climb the mountain and visit the Swami. I have all I need inside. The simpler I make it the easier it gets. The harder I make it the harder it gets.
I am a simple person. I ask to be loved and I want to give that love in return. I want to be acknowledged for what I do but if I donít show you what I am capable of doing, how can you acknowledge me?
I am a simple person. I can tell you with confidence that I am funny, I am intelligent and I can get you to buy an igloo in Alaska with the twinkle in my eye.
Being simple doesnít require a lot of work. It requires honesty. Yes, I have made a ton of mistakes but a quick review of everything I have written above shows that none of it has changed because Iíve admitted to being weak, or thrown a temper tantrum or changed a computer over to Windows 7 all by myself and messed it up after my wife told me to wait for one of sons who is an IT specialist.
The further I travel and the more I am ďhonestly honestĒ with myself the more I see that losing the bad weight I put on, adjusting my meal plan and working out has little or nothing to do with food and everything to do with how I see and value myself. We believe it hurts to be ďhonestly honestĒ Come close and Iíll tell you a little secret. Once I faced me, I simply saw what everyone else saw and it wasnít bad. Once I was honest with me I found out I was a really cool dude, or ďsirĒ to those of you under thirty. The only thing that stopped me from being me was me.
There is no bravado here, no false courage. Iíll fail more today then Iíll succeed. At the end of the day Iíll write down one million things I wish I would have done differently. The difference is when I look at it tonight Iíll smile a bit instead of a painful grimace