Monday, February 22, 2010
Ok, so the other day I was supposed to go bowling with my friends. Sounded like a great way to get out, have some fun and get in some exercise. Well, that didn't happen!! I ended up not feeling well that day, so excused myself from the activities. Since I had earlier not had enough time to get myself together in the morning, I didn't have enough snacks to carry myself through the rest of my work day. Needless to say, by the time I got off work, I was STARVING!!! I went home and got my 13 yr old daughter and went to the chinese buffet that I'd been wanting to try by our apartment. I didn't quite loose my mind like usual....I only had 2 peices of sweet sour chicken, only a couple of peices of general Tsao's chicken, no dessert, made sure I ate a big piece of baked salmon, but I still went to the stupid chinese buffet and don't even have a clue about how many caolories etc I ate that night. I went home stuffed to the gills, but honestly I felt better about my choices than I ever have at a buffet because I made conscious decisions about what I ate instead of just shoving everything and anything onto my plate. I also didn't drink enough water that day. Not nearly enough.
CRASH AND BURN FOR THE DAY!!!!
After I got home, I told myself that I shouldn't have done it. I was right. I shouldn't have. But I did, and there was no going back now. I accepted it and moved on. I started the next day off on the right foot again and have been back on track ever since. I can't continue to beat myself up over every little slip I have. I'm proud of myself just for the fact that I'm logging my food in the first place. I've put it off for years. I'm proud of myself for making conscious decisions about what I put in my body. Being able to see what I've been eating has helped me tremendously. Now I know why I'm fat. It makes it soooo much easier to make better choices in the food I eat and I'm starting to see a difference! I'm proud of myself for letting my daughter see the positive decisions I'm trying to make for myself and hoping she carries them with her into adulthood.
Even though I had a bad day, it doesn't mean that I can't recover from it. I just weighed myself (in the early evening and after having eaten a few times today) and have even lost a pound since the last time I weighed myself!!!!!
A crash and burn isn't permanent people.......I'm proof of that.