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Major Setback


Monday, February 22, 2010

Well, where do I start? I've just experienced a long, very major setback. All I've done for the last couple of months is read SP notices, and spin the Spark Wheel. I purchased "The Spark", and I've barely had any time to read it. I gained weight over the holidays, but that's only the beginning.
I've had typical, normal conflict in my life, but I've dealt with it by eating very large portions of such things as burgers and goodies, mostly right after a bad day at work ( which included typical stress's, and normal conflicts) and, after unpleasant moments with my kids. Again, typical.
Right before Valentines Day( a holiday I'm not fond of, for now) I had three very busy bad days, that involved nights away from home on the job, situations on the job, and, situations at home.
The three days ended on the Saturday night with me sending the kids out to the movies, getting a bowl of brownies, and crying myself to sleep in front of an online movie.

Not a good way to deal with that sort of thing. Especially now.

I went today to weigh myself. The scale said 223!
That's just 12 pounds shy of morbid obesity for me!
I've never been that heavy!

To Beshaille and Nancy, thanks for the Spark Goodies, and for checking in. It meant alot! I'm sorry I haven't gotten back to you. I've just had stuff to deal with.

As for my current weight, this doesn't mean I've given up. It just means that I don't think I can realistically expect positive results until I deal with certain situations better.

Anyway, I'm hoping to get to the Y before 3PM.

Jennifer
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STUDIOMEDIC 2/23/2010 12:43AM

    Hey Jen!

Don't consider your recent stresses to be a "major setback" consider just a minor roadblock, a minor roadblock that I know YOU can overcome. I know all too well what it is like to stress eat....I don't as much stress eat as I do stress "drink" (Coca Cola). Even from the days working on an ambulance, a bad call= a 32oz Coke from McDonalds. Nowadays it is somewhat the same, stress at home = a BIG Coke, stress at work= a BIG Coke. I am slowly learning to overcome my urge for caffeine and replacing the Cokes with water, but it is hard. Dasani doesn't always help.

Weight loss can be very stressful, not including adding the everyday stresses in your life. I actually just went to my doctor a couple of weeks ago to be evaluated for my weight.What a fiasco that was...............

Last year I saw another Dr. who prescribed me Phentermine (weight loss supplement)for my weight. I did absolutely wonderful on it and ended up losing 30 lbs within a 6 month period, I was ecstatic. I even started a fitness group here at work for our third shifters!!Everything was going great, not only was I on the road to becoming healthier so were my co-workers.

However, I plateau'd and as much as I exercised, watched what I ate, I could not lose another pound. The doctor would not refill my prescription, stating I need to be more dilingent in watching what I eat.....I explained to him that working third shift, I really do not eat that much. He didn't understand that my weight just plateau'd and nothing was helping. I gave up! The 30lbs that I lost, well they came back. Now I can barely button any of my pants, I feel absolutely disgusted. I like yourself have never weighed this much....

I eventually changed Dr's. and I made an appointment for an evaluation. When asked why I was there, I explained to the Dr that I needed to lose weight and I need help, preferably with assistance from medication and counseling. The Dr looked at me and said "You are only a couple of points over your BMI(Normal=24.9, mine is 33.5!!!thats more than just a couple of points) I think you can lose weight without any medication" She told me to eat a balance diet..blah blah blah.......( once again a Dr who doesn't understand people who work overnight shifts and their eating habits)She then said she wanted to bloodwork($$$$$ for the DR's) and then she would see about prescribing Adipex...

Bloodwork came back normal, but she still wouldn't help me! I waited and finally went back a couple of weeks ago...Same routine again....bloodwork, Thyroid scan, etc.....Everything is NORMAL! When I asked the Dr about medication, counseling, anything to help me...He said "Well see me in a month and we will see what we can do" What the heck! I came in asking for help and you just turn me away because you do not think I am that overweight, when in actuality I am 50lbs overweight.... UGH!!!

So I decided if he isn't going to help me then I have no choice, but to help myself........I had installed a mini gym ( my 40th birthday present) in my home complete with a treadmill, recumbent bike, 3 station weight machine and a full compliment of free weights. I make it a point now to exercise every night....my reward is my tanning bed!!! 30-45 minutes exercising, 20 minutes in the tanning bed....I also track EVERYTHING that I eat and drink, even if it is bad, such as was the 923-calorie cheeseburger I had at Five Guys the other night...lol I find that tracking everyday helps keep me in check.....I know Jennifer with your schedule it can be hard to keep track of everything you eat, but trust me it helps.

As of today, I haven't seen any change in my weight, I am sure if I stop drinking Cokes the weight will start to come off, but I am not giving up. I will continue to watch what I eat and to exercise regularly........I have also made it a goal to get back into running 5K races, something I use to do ever weekend.

Jennifer I know with hardwork, will-power and daily exercise WE will get to our weight goal. It is apparent that no one, but US can make that goal.

I will ALWAYS be here for you for support!!! We CAN DO IT!!

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MOM2NAT2007 2/22/2010 4:32PM

  {{Hugs}} Jennifer. I'm proud of you for setting your goal for gym-time today. You can do it!

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PURPLESPEDCOW 2/22/2010 4:21PM

    Jennifer,
I don't know what all you are dealing with, but I know eating isn't solving anything. From what I have read here, and I am new to SP, you will receive nothing but support. Please, please don't give up. Start again with something small that you can do, then add to that. Look at the scale as a challenge, not a defeat.
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