Monday, February 22, 2010
I have recently learned that there may be more going on with me than I first thought. Many of you know that I am MIA from this site for long periods of time and then come back all confident and ready to make a difference only to stick around a short time and leave again. I have often wondered why my attitude is so great one moment and the next I couldn't care less. Today I got curious when I saw a commerical for the birth control YAZ. It wasn't the pill itself that made me curious but the topic of PMDD they discussed. They listed some of the syptoms on the commerical and as I look over them, a light bulb went off. All of those syptoms fit ME! I immediately went to my computer and did some searching. Come to find out, PMDD fits me to a "T". The weight gain, the depression, the mood swings, the insomnia and restless sleep, the digestive problems, irregular periods, depression, anxiety, adult acne, etc, etc.
Many of you who have followed my journey know that I was diagnosed with PCOS at the end of 2007. I made huge changed to my life the next year and lost 40 pounds! But then things started to change. I went through some hard personal struggles in addition to financial ones. I lost my motivation and started to slip into what I can only discribe as depression symptoms. I lacked motivation even when I knew I should be doing something, the things that made me happy once no longer held anything, my anxiety increased, etc. and all this let to me gaining all that weight back again which only made things worst. Lately, I've been experiencing some new things that have made me scratch my head. They include digestive problems, adult acne, and bladder problems. I've not been able to figure it out. But now, I think I may have found the answer. PMDD affects half of women, much like PCOS. Maybe I was misdiagnosed...maybe I have both....maybe I could be doing something different that could change my life!
I am not trying to write off things on PMDD or PCOS. If I really wanted, I could have changed things, but if I'm suffering from things beyond my control that I need help with, it is possible that no matter what I did, I wouldn't have made it. I'm actually really excited writing this to go back to my doctor and ask some more questions. While I hate the thought of more medication, maybe it is what I need to finally make the ultimate change and get my life back. I've felt so years now that my life is out of control and I'm barely holding on. Perhaps all those feelings and problems are all wrapped up into one diagnose that hasn't happened yet.